I am an emotional wreck. I can't even begin to sort out my thoughts, so i will just write as it comes. today i had a bad day. My mother pissed me off, she hurt me... and i can't bring it up to her because she will become so defensive, and she will hold a grudge for too long. I feel stifled... like i wish so badly i could express what i want to her instead of worrying about her reaction. Her actions bring up so many undealt with emotions from my childhood with her.Ugh... i can't even do this right now. I feel too ill. One good thig though, i just got back from my 3rd meeting of the week... so far so good. Yes i will " keep coming back" At least i stopped crying!