confusedmoma

I went to my first aquasize on wed, and am planning on going once a week! It was so much fun!

I went to a meeting for the first time by myself. I am starting to feel like i belong, and i am feeling much more at ease! Wish i could go every day!!

I am an emotional wreck. I can't even begin to sort out my thoughts, so i will just write as it comes. today i had a bad day. My mother pissed me off, she hurt me... and i can't bring it up to her...

I went to another meeting! yay

Well i went to an aa meetng last night, which was great to be at, but i broke down while speaking and it was embarassing. I do need to prioritize going to meetings to keep my head on straight.

I got up early today, hoping to have a little alone time. I need to start writing down some goals, even simple ones so i have something to work towards.

well its been some time since i last wrote.. but really, time is an illusion...time used to be detrimental to my well being... id sit and cry for the lost years stuck in the insanity..id push myself...

for a long time, i questioned the gods love for me. i felt like there was no way i would ever be forgiven for all the mistakes i have committed... without his help, i wasnt able to forgive myself or...

so grateful for those rooms. i am finding myself all over again. thankful, thankful and sooo thankful for aa....

its been a long time...im still sober...im working now...some days are good, others are bad but i will NEVER give up on this path....of spiritual growth....because when the light shines down, i feel...

I ended up relapsing in september of 2010. It happened slowly. I got diagnosed with double depression and bipolar, along with a generalized anxiety/personality disoreder some time last year, and was...

dear journalmy deprssion took me on a ride the past couple of days. but im determined to fight back today.so what if i have no social life, i have my family. so what if i get bored, i am sober. so...

Dear Journal Today i woke up in such a happy mood and did it ever feel great! I was singing and laughing with the kids as i got them ready for school... sure felt wonderful to enjoy it for once...

Today was a bit better. I just constantly have to monitor my thoughts, which is what i did today. I realize my self worth is still pretty low, so i even have to say affirmations when i am feeling...