I'd love to come in here and lie and say that always telling the truth and giving up the habit is easy, on the contrary, it's fricking hard. But I am pleased to report that even though there almost were some slip up's, I've been able to put together 3 days in a row of not lying.

I just keep trying to put one baby step in front of the other, it's all I can do!

WTG Aaron and Patel - Keep coming back Shelly.

Aaron you are right it is difficult but I'm finding that telling the truth has lifted so many burdens, I have been feeling less miserable each day that I am not lying I hope I continue and if I do tell a lie that I correct the mistake immediately. Today is a good start so far and going to try not to slip up.

Hello everyone, I'm Michael and I've been lying to everyone and anyone that is around whenever my faults/inadequacies are about to be found out; even by people who know I'm not perfect and my brain knows they'll still love me. It has destroyed my 21 year marriage, put my relationship with my two kids in jeopardy, driven my mom to the brink of thinking she is hallucinating and so many more problems. I've been in therapy for a few years, on Paxil and I still revert. Maybe not as often, but I still revert. I'm tired and can't stood looking at myself in the mirror knowing what I've done. I'm desperate to make sure I'm not a sociopath (my therapist assures me I'm not) but I've lied to him too. So, you are my hope. I need support/friends/reminders of how great life is when you're not worried about who is going to find out what. I will come here every day and promise you that I will do better each day and share any inspiration I find. You are the only people I can share this with; no one else will understand.

Thanks!

Michael

I feel I'm going to check in again, because I have to hang out with my separated wife and I do not want to destroy it now by telling a lie it better to to be safe than sorry.

Checking in yesterday was good I did not lie and it's been a long time since I have been happy. I feel so much stress is relieved I pray and hope I always continue like this. Today no different I am going to be seeing my wife again and I do want to slip up. I know I can do it because I can see how much better I feel for being honest I actually feel I have a real chance to being a normal person.

Congrat's to you ppatel, I am very happy for you! I'm sure you'll do just as fine with todays visit with your Wife, as you've done in previous encounters.

The visit was good making good progress my wife gave me a medallion with scripture on it. I am going to keep trying to make progress and hope to change my life around. I feel better each day I'm not lying so I'm hanging in there.

Checking in: Attended my 3rd compulsive disorder support group meeting yesterday, now that I'm 3 meetings deep, I suspect the white ginger gloves of both the facilitator and the members are coming off. Yesterdays meetings was a little bit more serious and a bit more brutal as far as diving into my life and being held accountable for various things I've done, in short, we're getting into "reality check" time!

As far as being honest, I've been able to string 4 days together towards being honest with others. It's no cake walk, it's hard, at time it's torturous, and all I can do is watch what I say, think twice before talking, keep my words slow and clear, and just praying to have what comes out of my mouth is honest.

As far as the recent break up between my ex-fiance and myself, I'm slowly doing the best I can to move on! It's still kind of hard to continue to look around at a home just filled with memories of her, and her not being here personally. It's painful at times, but the hardest thing I'm facing and dealing with, is that fact that I'm powerless, powerless to make things right between us, powerless to try and mend the burnt bridge, powerless and realizing that she's never coming back. Just like I'm doing with trying to be honest, I just keep try to put one baby step in front of the other and as best I can, just try to move on!

Arron - remember the serenity prayer:

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Being powerless to change things is difficult for those of us who are used to being able to manipulate and control others. May God grant us the serenity to accept the things we can not change.

Checking in have been doing okay and not lying. I'm going to be meshing some steps to fix my dishonesty, I'll be bringing my my wife home so she can meet my mother and on Thursday. I hope to stop hiding her and continue to not lie and try to do the right thing. My first mistake was not listening and getting help so I hope to listen to her and do things that's right by her and everyone.

Hi All,

It's been a while since I checked in... It's been an up and and down road with my wife. I've not lied to her or anyone in a long time, so in that regard I'm truly happy, however the trust that was broken has proven to be a very hard thing to rebuild. The past few months have been more down than up... The wound I gave my wife was very deep and just not healing.

I've learned to slow down and think before I speak, which has been huge. I've worried less about giving the 'right' answer and more about giving the truthful one. It's not been easy, but I've found that telling the truth is just as addictive as lying... Very empowering also.

Take care all and have a good evening.

It's been a few days since my first post. it's great reading what everyone else has posted. It's supportive and, since everyone here seems to waiting to catch me in my next lie, it's something that helps right now. It's so funny how someone can ask, "Why didn't you just make the right decision?" They understand intellectually that something doesn't fire right, but at the end of the day, since it's not them, they can't have true empathy. The thing that I keep telling myself is that I have to not need their sympathy/empathy or anything. And it's the hardest thing in the world because I just want someone to tell me, "You're not a bad person, you just make bad decisions and it's not your fault." :-) I'm hoping a lot of quiet time will help me hear my own voice cheer myself on. I start Hypnotherapy tomorrow, see my therapist today, taking my Paxil every day and reading my Daily OMs.

To all those struggling to be better today than they were yesterday, I know it's hard and you want to win the fight!

Check in, today my wife thinks that we don't have major problems it saddens me to hear that cause I feel like there are. I know she is being supportive and pretty much forgiven me for everything I have ever done. I just hope I don't disappoint her and just always continue to do the right thing and listen to her. I know the pain I caused her and I refuse to go down that path again. This is my reminder to make sure I am honest.

Hello all. I am new and I am a Liar. My story is long, but I know I need help. I have lost everything. I don't know where to begin.