Every morning I wake up promising myself that I will not gamble. Every night I go to bed wishing that I hadn't. It's a cycle and I can't break it. So I'm going to try posting here to see if it can help me get out of this circle of betting, winning, betting, losing, betting, chasing, quitting, betting to win back some losses and then planning to quit for good, betting and winning, betting to win more since I'm now on a roll, losing, chasing to get back the winnings, losing it all, betting again, losing, chasing, quitting... The next word in the cycle is "betting," but I'm replacing it with "posting" and hope that can put an end to it.
My vice is online sports. It's a combination of escaping from the day and the addiction to winning money. I've had a problem for 4 years now and it has escalated over the past 6 months. Before that, I was betting $300-$500 a week. It was a bad habit and I wanted to quit, but didn't. And then I discovered bitcoin as a way to fund my account. And the stakes went up. My deposits went up in both amount and frequency. In the last six months I have turned an intial deposits of $1000 into over $20,000 on five occasions, only to lose it all within 72 hours and repeating the process again and again. Of course, I always end up losing the $1000 deposit followed by losing the redposits in the chase.
So today I stop. And I'm posting this both for your support and so I can read it the next time I have the urge. Hope to update this and track my progress. I want to stop. I need to stop. My first goal is one day, my second goal is 7 days. My third goal is 30 days.
I hate being a compulsive gambler.
Well I did it again...gambled away every last cent. Disgusted with myself...praying this time I have the strength to be done for good. So my apology is that I plan to post a single phrase every day...starting today...and that is TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE. That’s gotta be my first and foremost thought every day. So if you see these repeated posts from me, I’m sorry if they annoy you but please...
hi everyone!.. Its been a while since I post here...and always thank you for your support. last time I gambled at the casino was a week ago and after losing little more than 1000$ it really hit me hard and my self-esteem just sank. So the next day I called and scheduled an appointment with a credit counselor...she was very kind and understanding ..we went through all my...