Beating Trich Community Group
You mean that there is a name for IT? Im not weird? Trichotillomania, that big, long word that is the bane of our world. With knowledge and support of others we CAN break free and live without this disorder interfering with our lives. Lets keep this uplifting and supportive and give each other the encouragement the other needs to make it to that next day.
Hi guys! I joined this group in the hopes that your encouragement and support will help me conquer my battle with trich :) I've been pulling my hair out for 5-6 years. I used to have thick, long, healthy hair. People used to touch it and envy me for how it would shine. After a year or two of trich, though, I managed to destroy all of it. I wasn't one of those people who would just pull 10 hairs a day or something; when I got started, I could go on forever. Trich has been a major roller coaster ride for me. During the bad times, I had big bald spots in my hair that I couldn't hide; I had my hair shaved off three times; I wore wigs. I also went through two phases when I just could not stop cutting my hair. Pulling made me depressed and stressed; that negative emotional state of course only induced me to pull even more. The good times, during which I had my trich under control, generally only lasted 2 months or so. Currently, I have short, full hair with short bangs. Short short short. I worry that I look unattractive, unfeminine, etc. (I'm convinced I look like a sea urchin when I step out of the shower, even though my friends tell me that's just my imagination), but I'm happy to just have hair again! I haven't pulled since November 15--that's 72 days. During that period of time, my hair has grown a lot. I can feel the urges starting to crop back up on me again, though, so I'm making a thread here to stay firm with my commitment to be pull-free!
Today is two weeks pull-free!!! (I think.) The days are flying by, probably because I'm so busy. Frustrated by the slow hair growth, but I know the stubbles will grow out soon. At least they've all sprung back up--that's what matters!
Glad internship is still going well, that's what really matters. ARGH I WANNA BE IN LONDON.. Have you seen any squirrels? So cute when they gather nuts.
2 weeks is AWESOME!!! Yay!!!!
1. OMG I CANT BELIEVE YOU READ ALL MY POSTS. OMG. I wrote a lot. BIG HUG!! U got me all teary eyed.
2. IM GLAD YOU LOVE YOUR INTERNSHIP!!! heheheh and your flatmates...sound like BIG SEWAGE RATS!! I cant believe they would do that. So immature! Who cares about them. YOU HAVE US!! hehhee
3. you sound like you are having a blast there and eating amazing food. IM JEALOUS!!
4. DOESN'T THE FEELING OF SANDPAPER ON YOUR HEAD FEEL AMAZING?? hahahaha I know what you mean!!
5. 2 weeks pull free!! you are a star!!! It IS frustrating at how slow hair grows. BOOOO. But, it will :) I was an agressive puller wearing bandanas like you. It grew back :)
6. I've never been to London but my sis LOVES IT TO DEATH!! she loves it so much she wants to move there haha.
BIG HUG!!!
I really really really really fucking hate my flatmates. Why do they feel the need to be bitchy and shitty all the fucking time? I'm sorry you aren't in a good fucking mood, but doesn't mean you have to take it out on me all the time just because I'm nice and put up with your shit and don't aggressively attack you or criticize every little thing you do or nag at you when I'm not happy. It's not that hard to be nice and tolerant. Jesus Christ. I don't like living with them any more than they like living with me, so why can't they just shut the hell up so we can all get along? I cause none of the problems here, NONE. They're always the one bitching to me about something or other when I've literally done nothing, and then say nothing to each other when they do things to piss each other off.
Literally had this conversation with a flatmate:
Me: (said something, I don't remember what)
Girl: What? (in a really harsh, aggressive tone)
Me: (taken aback, so just silently stared at her for a second while rapidly trying to deduce what I could have possibly done to piss her off)
Girl: (staring at me with animosity emanating from her) Can you seriously stop just staring at me after you say something and I say what because I didn't hear what you said?
Me: ...I mean--I didn't realize that's why you were saying why.
Girl: Well, that was why, because I couldn't hear. (still in really aggressive tone)
Me: (completely flabbergasted)
Immediately after, one of the other flatmates asked her to help with something and she went up to them saying, "Sure, no problem!!" in this sickly sweet, high-pitched voice.
And last night, (we have to share a room because the flat has only 2 rooms) the girl bitched at me to stop RUBBING MY LEG AGAINST THE FABRIC when I was trying to sleep, which I didn't even realize I was doing!! I was just like--WHAT THE FUCK?!??! If YOU stop snoring, then maybe I'll stop twitching my leg! Sorry your loud-ass snoring was keeping me up?!?!
I just don't understand why every little thing that I do has to be blown up to something so big so that I get yelled at. Like, the other day, they flipped out at me because I was TYPING TOO LOUDLY.
I can't stand this. Soon enough, I'll seriously say something because this is stressing me out and that's not okay. I wish I were as bitchy as they were. When I'm unhappy, I just don't TALK, I'm just QUIET. I don't TAKE IT OUT on anyone. In fact, I would feel so shitty if I were that bitchy to someone and hurt their feelings. I just don't understand how I am turned into the inconsiderate, crappy roommate when they're the ones fucking with my head like this.
Upset.
I'm so sorry you have to put up with that :( That's a horrible situation.
Just :( I don't know what to advise :(
Xoxoxoxo
enjoy london - did you see the queen on her boat today ?! shame about the weather, but london is fab.. also check out "spitalfields market and brick lane.. great fun eating places to hang out in..
keep the hands down girl and well done !! xx
Can you ask to move, like luleee said? or just show them they dont bother you. Sometimes when people do that it is because they know it gets to you. I cant stand people like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh...and its just women. I dont ever hear or see a man act like that. Women are drama filled instigators (not us of course, but u know what I mean! we are all awesome!!) but yea, either I would ignore them, or ask to be moved. Its funny because I am telling you this, but I know I would of already gone off on them HAHAHA.
gosh!! bitches!! I wish i could do something for you. Like i say to mystudents, pretend they arent there. Dont lookat them, speak to them, NOTHING.
Still pull-free, but struggling a little with life at the moment. Family stuff, friends stuff. General stress. Bleh. Don't feel good :(
hugs!
We can have a pity party together sometime.
I'm happy to know you are still pull free :)
I will join in the pity party too
BIG HUG