Normally I'd be aware, Mid. But my cycle's been all over the place ever since I went off the pill. Sorry, tmi probably for some. Thank you for your kind words :)

YES you're right, it's advice I've given before, just it's more depressing when it's happening to you, ha.

I've pulled 2 hairs today, one without realising, the next on purpose. I am so determined to keep my count at 2, and start day one again tomorrow with success.

xxx

Pf so far today... It's been hard.

3pm.

Hey sweetie!! I'm back!! Had to go back and catch up. I see that u are struggling right now. Just want to say that u can do this. U made it to 24 days I know u can again. Deep
Breaths!! Abc, right?
I don't like being on the pill. It changes me hahaha.
Xo

Thanks, i know :) ABC's.

Yeah me too re: pill, not a fan. So happy being off it.

MISSED YOU SAM!!!

Missed you too, it's been kinda quiet around here lately.

Well I'm one day pull free.

Let's hope today is easier.

Ugh, I remember the "all over the place" when I went off the birth control pills. I believe hubby's exact words were, "I'm glad I'm going away for a while, this is hard keeping up with you - all over the place".
It took six months, I hope it's not that long for you!
One day pull-free, success! Hurrah for the goal!

You have the guts to keep at it, no matter what! Stay with it!

Hugs!

sometimes, i hate being a woman !! haha. hormones suck.. when we get through that time of the month without pulling.. really we have no excuses ! you can do it honey !! xx

Eek mid!! I hope not also.

Yes lulee, I've remained pf through at least 10 "cycles" so I know I can do it!

Was not pf yesterday, pulled about 5 hairs.

Today I'm hungover and have to work. BIG triggers. But I can do it.

Eek, middle of the day, still hungover, even watching tv and on my computer, and still pull free!

Excellent.

Stay strong! You can do this, you can, you can!!!!

Hugs!!!

Off the pill, good. You will even out. Hormones are agents of enlightenment.

How does it feel? Really urgey? Self-soothing? More habit-driven? Take a good look at what is happening when you pull, or strand, or rummage. I was having very strong urges when I first came on here, about 10 minutes ago. I actively stared into the urge, and then posted to Lien and lulee and what do you know? It has completely subsided.

Micromanage the Beast. Be merciless. Kill him with tedium. xoxo

Felt very habit driven... Like I just automatically started doing it, and didn't think of it as a big deal. Urge + habit + self soothing. Everything!

I just have to be stronger and realise that it's REALLY hard to stay pull free. It's not easy. It's not fun. It's GOING to feel pointless and stupid. I should expect to feel "meh, why not"..

I've made the rule not to pull for a reason, I've got to not question it. Or rather, I have to question why I'd give in and pull. WHY? It's not worth it!!!

Sooooo rambly.. but gonna click "submit reply" anyway.

Fanks Phoebe xx

Still pf.. it's 3pm.

I really admire your strength, Sam! Yes, just keep reminding yourself how being pull-free can help with your self-esteem, confidence, etc., and of all the things you can do when you have a full head of hair (go for drives with windows down, go swimming, run around in the rain...) without ever worrying about your hair!

I personally think you should give yourself a nice, BIG reward today if you go one day pull-free. First day's usually the hardest.

Keep up your lovely optimistic way of thinking :)