I know what you mean sam . I got lazy in the end. Or...too sure of myself . We all really have to stay committed and focused TIL THE VERY END full head or hair or not. Look at phoebe!! hehe .
You are doing SO WWELL!! 55 DAYS!!! amazing work

congrats hon

HUGS

Thanks mrs k! Yeah my hair has looked beautiful since I got it cut august last year. My relapse had absolutely no physical effect on the look of my hair, no bald patches or thinning etc. I was being honest with the amount I was pulling and I didn't pull much. I'm actually dying my hair with henna and indigo as we speak. Kinda worried about how it will go. I'm going to get my hair cut this week too. I'll post sone pics soon, finally. I know a few of you have seen my hair already on fb and trich world, butbe nice to put something on here too. I love my hair.

Thank you Alex!! I've had a shaky past few days, really really tempted. But holding on. Thanks so much for your always enthusiastic support :) x

Woooo! I did some cassia a couple weeks ago, it was lovely having my head all wrapped up for hours. (If you're into that kind of thing, I guess.) I'm sure it'll turn out lovely!

So glad you're holding on! Congrats for your super-awesome success.

Woooo! I did some cassia a couple weeks ago, it was lovely having my head all wrapped up for hours. (If you're into that kind of thing, I guess.) I'm sure it'll turn out lovely!

So glad you're holding on! Congrats for your super-awesome success.

Thanks Emmy :)

I bought some body quality henna and indigo from aus but think I'm going to buy it from mehandi in the US next time, as its certified. Yeah not such a fan of having my hair wrapped up, but it's not awful!

Eew, didn't notice the double post until now. WHY, DS, WHYYYYY?

Yeah so annoying.

So fiiiiinally rinsed my henna-indigo mix out and the result was very dark brown hair, no red really, even in the light. No crazy colours and no hair falling out so that's a plus! Apparently the colour will deepen in the next few days, hmmm. I'm going to try dying my hair with henna only next time, as I do want a really deep reddish brown, and my hair is naturally dark brown, so that should give me the result I'm after! What's great with the henna is that you can apply it as often as you like without damaging your hair at all.

Thanks so much Emmy for getting me onto this.

Hm it actually does have a bit of warmth to it! Really nice colour. Dyed Greys and whites fairly well, I think next application will cover fully.

I'm glad you're happy with your hair color :) It's inspiring to hear that you really love your hair. I always find myself criticizing mine, even if I haven't pulled in ages. I don't like that it's so short because I worry it must make me look like a boy, even though people assure me that I don't. I need to learn to love my hair the way it is, because I've actually gotten compliments on it. Anyways, great to hear that you're doing well and sorry that you've been fighting off strong urges for the past few days. I hope you get through them by using all the techniques you know about. I think the hardest part for me is not only knowing these but actually applying them as I go through my day--I tend to be a bit lazy about it, especially when I'm trying to get other things done.

Anyways, keep up the great work :)

Awesome to find hair color that works! Stay strong, you are beautiful, just the way you are!

Thanks stronger, well I can't help but love it, it's HAIR!! I lived with so much of the hair on the top of my head missing for so long, when it finally all grew back I was so excited!! Sometimes I have a bad hair day but then I just remind myself, who cares if it's a little frizzy or the curls aren't all perfect spirals, IT'S HAIR! And yeah I'm totally with you about being lazy with the techniques. Although I do the deep breathing thing, and I will go and brush/comb my hair to help out. So I do a few things I guess. Mostly.

Thanks Mid, yeah it's very exciting, no more horrible chemical hair dyes!!

Well I'm working hard today, have a haircut tomorrow (my second haircut in well over 10 years! I'm so desperately in need of a cut, I've been so lazy, that's why it's been so long. Oh and when I was overseas for three months I didn't really want to get it cut there), and I'm 2 months pull free on Saturday! Ok, now the past week I've pulled out several tiny baby hairs that were ready to come out, and yesterday I pulled at least 5 of them. I was really struggling. I know honestly I should start my count over, but I'm not going to. With my count so high it's such a big motivator for me, and if I can move past this and be 100% pull free for today and the next few days, then I will not start my count over. So when I cheer for 2 months pull free, I'm not blatantly disregarding those hairs, but for like 99.9% of 2 months I HAVE been pull free so I'm gonna celebrate!

60 days pull free

61 days!

Yesterday i worked on my laptop all day and there was very minimal playing, and absolutely no pulling! Well done me.

My main triggers while doing work are feeling stressed, ashamed, worthless, a failure! (feel like I won't make the deadline, feel like I'll disappoint the client, feel like I'm just not creative enough, feel overwhelmed at how much I have to do in such a short period of time). Fortunately I was not feeling any of those things yesterday, so my urges were minimal! I was very proud, I brought my hand down many times.

Off to my hair cut, yay! Can't believe I've been so lazy that I haven't gotten it cut since my first cut last year. Oh well it's not in too bad shape. It's grown SO much though, when wet the longer front bits go well below my collar bone! It's grown about 6cm. I want it shorter again.

La la la anyway bye for now.

Sam, the fact that you work for yourself is so incredible; it is so much stress yet here you are at 61 days!! Yay for hair cut. I'm not ready yet, sloooow growth on top. I'll have to live vicariously thru you guys until my day comes! Enjoy and post pics!

Awesome to get a hair cut! Thrilling! I'm impressed, keep focusing on the positive way to work through the feelings you express to help you stay strong. The official changing the pattern of the way you think is the CBT (cognitive behavior therapy) technique that I'm learning, and you said it so much better!
Go for it, hands down, stay busy, be positive, and know you are an inspiration to us all!
61 days, yes!!

you rock!!