mmm.. good way of looking at it sam.. ! ok i will tougher on you in future.. you are a very naughty girl hahah
you KNOW you can do it.. i think it sometimes is the decision we make for ourselves.. for me, i feel like it is my mind playing trichs with me... if i did not listen to my friends here, that voice in my head would win.. and i would be pulling.. have a great pull free day !!

Yeah it's soooo hard to ignore that voice because it's OUR voice... Really hard. It's like ignoring your base urges and listening to the rational facts that you know.. It's like stopping yourself from eating the whole block of chocolate. It's like not having pizza 3 times a week. Its like not punching that rude person.

Well bed time and 100% pf. I can do it when I want to. (not to be all nah nah nah!!!)

Haha!! I don’t know about you, but I manage to restrain myself from slapping rude people in the face. I do give them the imaginary kick in the ass though..
But I get what you mean, it’s like always trying to be the bigger person.. it’s soooo hard since the “other” person is you as well.. that’s a lot of person in one sentence.. :p

Yes you can be completely pullfree if you set your mind to it :)
Be the bigger Sam! :p

By the way, I meant that as we want to eat all the choc/pizza/punch that person. But we don't cos the consequences suck. Same thing for pulling. Just cos we want to doesn't mean we should.

I've never punched someone in the face for the record!

Hehe! Don’t worry, I didn’t think you had.. :)

What if having bald patches was considered fashionable, would pulling out your hair still be a disorder?

I was just wondering, since that would eliminate the fact that the consequences suck..

Don't think it would!! And we wouldn't be here. Maybe one day..!

Oh and speaking of one day, I'm one day pull free. Woo.

the only person i have ever felt like punching is myself - for pulling.. used to drive me to such frustration , then i would get angry with myself for doing it - horrible.. not my use of USED to etc etc.. positive thinking.. positive actions.. you are so totally right sam.. what a wise lady you are !.. i forgot that voice was my own voice and made excuses for it, saying it was the trichs voice.. thanks for your wise and wondering words..
heres to more more hair growing days.. you can do it sam !! you know you can !!

Well it is trich's voice.... I think it's hard to separate. It's like we have two voices. It's lucky we can fight it at all. It's kind of like fighting breathing sometimes!!! Every part of us tells us to pull, almost on instinct like breathing. But unlike breathing we don't need to pull to survive, yay!! THanks for your support luleee :)

5pm day 2. Yep yep going well. I think I need to set a goal for myself. One week pull free and I get.... Um.... A box of paddle pops that I can eat at home! Yeah I"m poor cos all my money's going to a new mac and obsessed with paddle pops right now so it's a good reward.

Back to what I was saying before. I think we are programmed to pull in certain situations (bored, tired, hungry, stressed, upset etc). So we have to re-program ourselves so that our reaction to those situations is no longer to pull or to raise out hands to our head. And I think the longer we don't engage in pulling or pulling behaviours, the less we need it. I believe it CAN get easier and when we've reached the point where we're not subconsciously pulling then it's really our responsibility whether we pull or not.

Am I rambling?.. might be. Too many things on my mind!

No, you´r not rambling :)

Being pull-free for a while now, i can feel some difference in my awareness.

Several times now, i´ve change my mind from "pull" to "not pull" in a split second.

When my hand unconsciously going for my scalp (inner voice "pull some !", mostly unconsciously), something other follows and another inner voice is telling me "no, don´t pull !"

Great work with fighting trich and analyzing it :)

All this have happened in a split-second, so i think it´s maybe a re-programming taking place, like you said :)

Yep, it's possible. It's hard to break the link cos it's so strong, but lets work on it day by day.

At the end of day 2! :) Bed time, yay!

Awesome, Confident, you can do this! For all you have given me this past year, pulling me up by the bootstraps when I couldn't make it to one hour, thank you. So, here's to distraction of necessity to break the trich urge, whether it's happening in the bathroom (my danger zone), the lounge room (great room, living room, family room, etc...), the office, the desk, the computer, and each time we reach distraction, it is a success!
Stay strong, two days is long, and you can do this!
Hugs!

Totally NOT rambling. This is exactly true for me. I've been able to re-train myself to not pull when I'm feeling stressed, bored, etc., but lately it seems like I'm just letting myself do it -- just for the instant, short-lived gratification. I really believe I need to replace the pulling with something else which is similar. Like instead of pulling, maybe massaging a pressure point. I had a worry stone that seemed to help quite a bit, but I lost it. :(

Congrats on day 2!!