10pm day 5 and going strong. Resisted quite a lot this afternoon. Felt trapped for over 3 hours, not a good feeling for us trichsters!!

Thanks Mr. Music. Awareness is simply essential.

Thanks my lovely Lien, I will!

Thanks luleee. Hmmm I should I should, I might. With the cat thing, I'm just the biggest animal lover, so maybe you can relate if I asked you to imagine how you would like a child to be treated in this situation?

GO SAAAAAAAAM!!!!

i could undstand more if it was a dog haha, they make me melt !, but i'm totally with on that one.. easier said than done.. !.. keep strong there are lots of lessons on youtube on how to tap.. - no more feelings of being trapped after being tapped ;-) (totally made that up.. but could just work ;-)

tap, tap, tap, really does work. I have a rhythm that comes through when I'm needing distraction, and I tap, tapatap, tap my way through it.

You are doing wonderful! Stay strong, keep em hands busy!

Day five, hurrah!

Yeah dogs are my favorite but any animal really has my adoration!

Thanks ma peeps, 5 days pf :)

You're doing so well! Keep at it :) Congrats!

Hey I'm gonna say that I'm 5 days pf, again. Yesterday a few (3-4, on separate occasions) came out while playing. Honestly just came out, no tugging involved or anything. I"m not going to start over, yeesh, but I feel a little guilt in stating that I'm 6 days pf, so 5 days pf it is, which is true.

:)

Thanks stronger!!!!!

Ack, starting over as of this minute. Just pulled like 5 hairs. Yes, pulled. On purpose. They came out easy, so what, I pulled them.

BAD ME!!! I'm so naughty.

Triggers were definitely negative emotions - feeling very uncreative, untalented etc while trying to come up with a brilliant idea and design for a booklet I'm working on.

Off to bake a pie, have never made one before. I picked some fresh rhubarb from my grandpa's garden and I found a recipe with hundreds of reviews on the web so I'm going to give it a go.

No worries, the important thing is you stopped yourself and are immediately starting over.
GO SAAM!! You can do this! Leave the little babies alone for awhile, they deserve a break and so do you :)

And good luck with your pie ;-)

Go for it, Sam, rhubarb pie is so delicious! Enjoy it!
I'm sorry you are starting over, however, here's my word of the day for you to use instead of "un" use "uni" for unique. When you get the creator block, reaching outside and doing something different will have a positive effect on your creativity going active again.
Best wishes, and I say you are such an inspiration!
Hugs to you!
Stay strong, you can do this!

Shit happens ;) Just show me how a relapse is handled in the confidentic way :)

Bad trich, NOT bad you :)

yes, i totally agreee, BADDD TRICCH, GOOD SAAAM !! forgive yourself.. accept that it is hard, do not beat yourself, for me, that was one of the worst things about having trich . the beating myself for doing it.. wow, i dont miss doing that (i just noticed how i said, that WAS one of the worst things.. maybe i am in denial.. but i really want to beat this beast !!
enjoy the pie.. and enjoy growing your hair !!

Thanks lien my dear, oh I did stop at first but then pulled all last night. Oops. I honestly just didn't care. No damage done (physically). Thanks, pie went well!! SO easy, and delicious.

Thank you Mid, I did! I mixed it with apples as I didn't have enough rhubarb. Here is the recipe for anyone who wants it. It literally took me 10 mins to make and an hour to bake. WOOHOO and YUM. http://allrecipes.com/recipe/fresh-rhubarb-pie/detail.aspx

Mid your comment really uplifted me when I read it. You're totally right, doing something else for a while gets me back in the creative mood.

Well I've been pull free all day today, its 4:22 in the afternoon now :) Hasn't even been that hard.

Thanks Mr. Music! You're right. Hehe ok I'll show you. By the way my full name on here is confidenticandoit, or confident I can do it. But you can call me sam!

Luleee hehe you're right. But the thing is, I CAN do it, so when I don't, well I'm being naughty. I'm not being hard on myself, I'm keeping myself in line. I think there's a different between being easy and loving to yourself and letting yourself get away with anything under the guise of being gentle on yourself. Difficult to see the line.. Thanks!!