I should look at the Rawhide trailer. I can't get a new doctor because there's a shortage of doctors here. I asked once and they said I'd have to go back on the waiting list. :( I waited two years to get my family doctor! My boyfriend has been living in this city for 7 years and still doesn't have a family doctor! I'm still feeling sick today. Not sure if it's my year long allergies or a cold.

I'm still here but I'm very down and depressed lately after losing Ava and Phoenix. We light memory candles all the time. I had trouble getting the medicine I need for asthma because of all the snow. All I have is rescue medication I have to use often. I'm having a rough time going out now anyway because I always cry because everything is a sad reminder of my babies. Seeing pregnant women upsets me a lot especially when they are talking right in front of me, like, "the baby this, the baby that..." It makes me so sad. I'm on medicine and it doesn't work. Grief counseling is nothing but a trigger to me lately and I can't bring myself to go back.

My boyfriend and I are so devastated now. After my d and c three weeks later my period decided to start and lasted four days and my endometriosis pain is worse. It was traumatic seeing that happen after losing them because it's another sad reminder that they are gone even though it's a positive sign my body is getting back on track according to the doctor. He told us they can do more to help me with any future pregnancies I have with more precautions early along. It's normal to have a period 2 to 8 weeks after a d and c. I have natural supplements to help with the healing of that and cause less scarring but the pain is bothering me and I can't get anywhere to get medicine for the pain. It's been a month and I'm doing worse I think grief wise. My boyfriend, his family, and I are still taking the loss quite hard. It was due to the placenta issues and the fibroid affected that. They removed the fibroid in the d and c thing they did but if it wasn't for that stupid thing I think they would still be here. Nothing makes sense anymore. All these people are complaining about their kids and not wanting their kids at all and mine are gone. This was my dream that I fought so hard for and people don't get that. It's a rough time and my emotions are everywhere. I'm sad and angry. I don't think people are considerate when hinting my babies should be dead or that the were better off dead. My son and daughter died because of placenta issues not because they are "meant to be dead". It's hard when people ask questions about it. I can't talk much about it or I'll start crying. I am concentrating on getting well first and getting a pneumonia shot as soon is possible because I hate pneumonia with asthma. First I have to get rid of the pneumonia I have and with this asthma and this cold it's only getting worse. I'm still having a bad time with it all overall with all this in my life now. It's emotional pain and depression that's getting me down the most and my anxiety issues as well. Everything is sad and hard right now.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time Hollywood!*hugs* I hope you will be able to get your asthma medication soon and to get rid of your pneumonia so you can get the pneumonia shot. People say really insensitive things without stopping to think of how it would affect someone who recently lost a twin pregnancy. I hope that the natural supplements help with healing. I've heard that endometriosis is very painful. Is there anything that you can take that helps? It would be incredibly hard to be around pregnant women or people complaining about their children.*hugs* Does talking to your boyfriend and being comforted by him help? I hope it does. I wish the snow would stop here too because it makes everything much more difficult.

Hello Hollywood-been missing/worrying about you! People don't stop and think before they speak and sadly since we aren't mind readers they don't realize what you have been thru without asking.

Darkness Ember..sounds like your town needs to bring in more drs etc!

Yes, they do. For a capital city we're surely lacking!

I'm here! Strange I don't get an email when there are posts on this thread! But it doesn't tell me which thread anyway...Here!!!

Meow! I left a cat here I hope you don't' mind. Just being silly!!

I don't get emails when there are new posts either. Do I have to click watch this topic? I guess it's better not to get emails all the time because I get so many from facebook notifications. Nothing wrong with being silly Redvelvet.

Yes I believe you do have to click to watch the topic...

Oh sure..leave a walking ball of fur here redvelvet...you will find it shaved with no more fur ;p

here I is...throwing pretend snowballs around :)

Still waiting for doctors to call me back! It seems all I do is leave messages for doctors who either don't call me back or take a really long time to do so!

tap fingers...how about while you're waiting you write them a nice letter about your health and how you feel about the lack of attention to the care you're receivng and mail it to their office

I would but I don't think that would make a difference. :(

as long as it wouldn't hurt-I would direct it to the office manager at the drs and let them know you feel you need more attention than you're receiving

My endocrinologist only has a single receptionist in her office. I've been having a really hard time because I have an infection in my trachea. I went to the ER, they gave me a breathing treatment. The doctor prescribed an antibiotic but no prednisone. Any time of respiratory infection makes my asthma flare. I've had two really bad asthma attacks today. My family doctor called in prednisone. My throat is really swollen, it's hard to swallow and to talk. I eat things that are easy to swallow like soup, yogurt, instant mashed potatoes, pudding, maybe pasta. Drink lots of liquids.

I am still having a rough time with greiving deeply from losing my twins Ava and Phoenix. The doctors won't prescribe my asthma meds I need that were helping me. The pulmonology doctor I was going to see is not in network for my insurance and out of the ones that do take it there is a three and a half week wait at the earliest and they don't care enough to get me in sooner. My primary care released me in care of a specialist so it is their stupid "policy" that they can't prescribe me medicine. A $1000 er visit will just leave me with more albuterol and antibiotics again, but not preventative medicine because it is the ers around here's "policies" to not. Prescribe medicine related to treating chronic health conditions. Not being able to breathe and doctors not even caring about it makes it even more difficult going through grieving. My emotions are totally put of control and counseling makes it worse and no medicine makes it better. I have realistic flashbacks all the time making me feel like I'm still in the process of losing them and I scream out my boyfriends name and his parents name and say no no no when they aren't there and suddenly "wake up" out of it being told that I screamed out names. I just have to walk away when that happens because I get so embarrassed by it. I feel like I'm going crazy and my babies aren't here and I can't breathe. I posted about it in the asthma group but no response yet. I'm very upset and struggling to breathe now and it seems like no doctor will help me or understand. Stupid stupid "policies". What a lame and lousy excuse to make someone suffer who is already suffering enough. That's how I'm feeling right now.