glad you found something which helps while you wait impatiently for the great drs

I'm getting a colonoscopy tomorrow. I'm doing the bowel prep today.

oh have fun :p well atleast get yourself a little treat afterwards

We ordered pizza and I had a lava crunch cake. My surgeon gave me a prescription for an anti-spasmodic called Dicetel. It's helping except for tonight where I'm having some cramping but not bowel spasms.

We are going to do something tomorrow morning on International Bereaved Mother's Day. We are wanting to honor our angel babies. So recently losing Ava and Phoenix was so hard and talking about it to others is harder. My boyfriend and I are planning a day out and to just be there for each other this day. It's going to be an emotional day, but I want to do something to memorialize them. We love them so much and taking time in memory of them is important to us. I'm still very down and upset.

I know that you and your boyfriend will do something special today to memorialize Ava and Phoenix. It will be an emotional day but you two will get through it together.*hugs*

whenever it is needed-we can honor our passed on loved ones

We had a nice time today and were able to do a private memorial. We went to the baby tree the ashes were on as well. We did a lot of walking and had to stop a lot because asthma slows you down quite a bit. We ended the day with me getting digestive issues. At the end of the day I pulled my calf muscle (it's pretty painful) and we both have sunburns now. We forgot sunblock. My boyfriends mom told me she is glad we are spending the international bereaved mother day together, but she knows Mother's Day is going to be hard for me so she wanted to help me through that any way she could. I am just glad that his family gets that and everything else.

I'm so glad you were able to have a private memorial together! Sorry that you pulled your calf muscle, have digestive issues and got sunburns!*hugs* I'm glad that your boyfriend's family is supportive.

I had a panic attack today again. After a day of memorial set aside for my babies, I have a bad day. My sister, who is pregnant, is experiencing complications with her pregnancy. She is dehydrated and the doctor tried to blame it on her for drinking cokes when she isn't drinking any. She's overweight and had HELLP syndrome and severe eclampsia in the past. My brother in law is a condescending narcissist who publically shamed and humiliated her in front of the doctor by bragging about losing 15 pounds in a week by basically starving himself (an unhealthy loss to begin with and likely unlasting) when he is overweight too. She LOST weight and he shamed her for not losing more and BOASTED (with his false downright hypocritical act of "charm" and a smug grin) about how he is "taking care" of her diet. He is FORCING her to walk several miles a day when she is in extreme pain, and he is not letting her eat anything unless she eats salad and grilled chicken. He put her down and stressed her and called her fat when he had gained a whole lot of weight too before she got pregnant. Her baby is unusually small and she has to wait several weeks before they will see her again. Something could be wrong and they aren't being as diligent as they should in my opinion. Her doctor is negligent and her husband is awful. It is causing me a lot of stress because I don't want to see another person go through or have to worry about going through a loss of a baby or have something affect their baby because someone is awful to them. It is causing me a great deal of stress and I'd been doing okay with my blood pressure until now. He is depressing her and stressing her and yelling at her all the time. He wants her to look better probably so he looks better but lies and says otherwise. It is hard to see right now. I am missing my own babies and I don't know what I'm going to do if something happens to hers too. My boyfriend is trying to calm me down and lend me some support but I just can't stop thinking about this.

I'm sorry that you had a panic attack and are stressed for your sister. I wish she could get away from her husband! She doesn't need all of that stress! Does your sister have any friends she could stay with for a while? I wish that the doctors would be diligent with her. I wish there was another doctor she could see!

Hollywood-your sister needs a new dr asap

I know- I told her that and she won't listen :( there's Medicaid issues there too I think because she has Medicaid. Meanwhile I'm not doing well because people are continuing to dismiss my own grief as well as my concern about this at work. Her husband also drives her. He, of course, agrees with the doctors. She doesn't drive because he puts her down so much and he won't teach her how to drive because he "doesn't think it's his job" and she "should just know how like everyone else". She lost all confidence and gave that up a long time ago. The way she's talked to she probably wants to cry every time she looks in a mirror. It's sad. My boyfriend says it's just something she'll have to come to a decision about when it comes to taking up for herself. I've been dealing with my own grief and my boyfriend says I should worry about that because it's not my place to put him in his place- it's hers. I know this is hard for me and I've told my brother in law off before pretty harshly. It caused a lot of drama. I don't need drama right now. That's not what I want. He's already damaged her so much. It's so hard to watch especially with a baby in the middle as well as a toddler. I really worry though that her doctor is inattentive to her and doesn't seem to comprehend her problems go beyond how much she weighs or what they THINK she eats or drinks. Also with her losing weight I would seriously doubt it screams high amounts of sugary beverages. I'm just really stressed lately. My dogs need a bath so I'm probably going to do that soon.

all you can do is try to get your sister to get a new dr-can't physically make her do so..hugsssss for you Before you give your doggy a bath :)

Here I is to save the day-or atleast brighten it whether it likes it or not