I really hate my life

I hate my life.  I hate what I have become.  I have become a hateful, spiteful, mean, nasty person. I am quick to anger, wholly frustrated, spewing venom against everyone. I have been cheated, cheated, cheated.  I lost my husband and that was not enough. I had to lose his parents, his siblings, his daughters.  His ex wife has been pursuing me with a vengeance. That sneaky horrible vindictive greedy bitch is hell bent on taking from me as much as she possibly can, meaning nearly EVERYTHING. I am homeless.  I am jobless.  I am widowed. I am disabled.  Meaningless shit.  All I dream about is hurting her. I want to watch her suffer.  I want her to suffer TERRIBLY for a VERY LONG TIME!!!   

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laurabp
laurabp

Hi Rachel, glad to hear from you but so sorry things have not gotten any better. Is there a court date or some expected time frame for the wife\'s claims to be over? Are there any State/Government plans to help you with your disability and unemployment? Sounds like you are definitely going to go in a totally different direction than you expected. I hope it proves to be just a detour on the way to something better. What is the ex-wife\'s problem? Does she blame you for the breakup of her marriage? She sounds like she needs some professional mental help. I sure hope things improve for you soon. Hugs, laurabp
lindalun
lindalun

Rachel: I am sorry to hear about what you have been going through, I pray that things work out for you. It is so hard find ourselves with our love one and to have to go through what you are experiencing is really devastating. Have you tried getting disablility or any government help that is available in your area. Take care of yourself. Lots of hugs Linda
deleted_user
deleted_user

Rachel,
Ditto, the above notes. I am so sorry to hear things are not better, but it sounds like they have actually grown worse.That is really stinky and not fair in the least. I hope you can find some moments of peace in this messed up world.

Susan