worser and worser
My late husband was an ass. A schmuck par excellence. I am destitute. No home. No money. No job. No children at home to occupy me. No companionship. Nothing. And the Rabbi's of my community are just WATCHING this happen. FUCK them all. I am better off dead. Not to be a hindrance to my kids or parents. And the fight can stop...
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Rachel, I am so sorry this has gotten so bad so quickly. Have you asked for any temporary help from your parents or your daughter? What about the city and state? Are there some programs you would qualify for that would assist you? I know it feels demeaning to go to those places - I have been talked down to, treated like a con artist, etc. by the Dept of Human Services here in Maine, but sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do, you know? And do it with as much dignity as you can muster. Too bad the Rabbis are so unconcerned; that happens in Christian churches too, of course. You are not better off dead - there is some kind of life lesson here in what is happening to you, and you probably won\'t get it till long after this is all over, but you CAN get through this! Please keep trying, and let us know what\'s happening. I\'m praying for you. laurabp
Hi Laura, thanks. Neither my parents nor my kid are in any position to help me. I am going to attempt to qualify for disability - at age 50 (my current age) if am disabled I am supposed to be able to begin to collect my late husbad\'s social security. Since that is almost 2k per month, it would be a huge help. In the meantime I have been in touch with a cousin of my late husband who happens to be a multi millionaire to ask him for a bailout.
Sounds like a plan - both plans! Good luck and keep us posted! laurabp