Headaches, Listlessness

 Today is Sunday. Normally my honey and I would have been upstate in the mountains, swimming, or lounging about in the sun or shade, in our anti gravity chairs we bought (they are GREAT), drinking hard lemonade,  talking with our friends or sibs, or with the girls, just hanging out, reading, basically just RELAXING.  Since I am now persona non grata to my DH's family, THEY are all upstate doing all that and I am home all alone. Most of my friends had plans for today. My parents invited me to be with them but tomorrow is their anniversary and they are going out for their anniversary dinner and a movie. They do not need their daughter tagging along. Even though they said they love my company, and I know they mean it, it is not right.  I have basically moped around the house, reading, napping, eating, watching TV. I have plenty of what to do but no motivation to do it. I have also had a terrible headache to boot which does not help. I finally realized it was a caffeine withdrawal headache. I spent the past 2 days (Shabbat) by my parents and they do not have "real" coffee -- only decaf.  So, I had eaten a meat meal for lunch wich means that since I keep kosher I could not eat any dairy. So, I opted for taking a Vivarin (caffeine pill) instead -- which ultimately is better as it worked faster. My headache disappeared and I actually feel a little better -- hence I am able to sit and write this.  I have been feeling some sadness today and missing being with Barry's family upstate. It is going to be something I think I will always miss now. I was so happy in my life, everything was so nice, warm, comfortable. I guess I was due for a shakeup... I hope all my DS friends are having a wonderful weekend.  Rachel