laurabp

Today I decided to leave a message with the site manager asking a couple of questions about the new apartment I will be moving to next month - like the exact date it will be ready, since they are...

I have been offered an opportunity to downgrade to a smaller sized apartment within my complex, and I have been having a very hard time with this.  I now understand why they tell you to wait at...

Right now the thing I miss the most about Stan is the easy conversation we always had; up until the last year year of his life when his health really started to decline, we never ran out of things to...

I am at the 7 1/2 month mark after the death of my husband and feeling over-all as if I am making good progess.  There are 10 steps that I have encountered on this journey so far.  Some are unique...

I have been unemployed for over a year now, and my twice extended unemployment benefits will be running out in about 2 months.  I am saving every penny I can, but I expect to run out of money for...

Heartfelt thanks to all of you who sent me encouraging words after my "bad day" journal entry yesterday.  I do feel better today and it always helps to know that I am not alone in this.  laurabp

This is definitely a "poor me" day - not sure why exactly.  The fact that I have not been able to get  a job in almost a year is not helping my self esteem, and the week long rain is depressing. ...

Ok, here I am after an extremely painful journal entry this morning, asking "what's wrong with me?" and by afternoon I have answered my own question. "Duh", as the young people say.The whole problem...

It is 34 months today since I lost Stan, and I feel more pain than I did months ago. It's almost like I am back at the beginning again except that I am no longer asking how do I get through the day...

Today I threw away my old coffee maker and set up my new one.  Should have made me feel great, except that my old one was the one that Stan and I used for years.  Another set of memories cast aside...

This is my 3rd Christmas since Stan died, and surprisingly, it is different from either of the other two years.  The first year I was on autopilot, determined to do a "normal" Christmas and not...

Today I got a postcard reminding me that I can order a Christmas wreath for my husband's grave, which I will do.  However, unlike last year when the thought was comforting, this year I am angry -...

Today marks 21 months since Stan died.  When I finished that first year, I was very surprised and disappointed to find that as I entered the second year, I went into even deeper loneliness and...

Overall, I am glad I joined this widow/widower support group.  I like to exchange ideas with people, and to compare differences in how we see things, solve problems, and in this case, grieve.  I...

I have spent the last 16 months stumbling around, trying to find what my life is supposed to be now that my husband is gone.  I was downsized about 6 months before he died, and then struggled...