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- I gave Bulimia 30 years of my young life... but the past 6 months have been mine. MINE. 6 months of finding out just how much was being taken from me, all those years... My time, my resources, my peace of mind... I pushed everyone away, I hid, I...
- Or should I say, nightmares.. Every 3 or 4 days or so, I have a dream in which I knowingly take a few sips of a drink with alcohol... I only drink a few ounces, and then a huge wave of dissappointment washes over me... I am sick and disheartened...
- Can I get a WOOOT!!! Thanks to all for the feedback on my Beer/No Beer post, your input was a great help to me! I really don't have perspective, it's like I've been in a fog, my entire adult life. You know, I wasn't really concerned about underage...
- This Saturday, at our home, my daughter's high-school graduation party... We've invited.. who knows, I never counted... How many have RSVP'd, who knows, I can't call my Voicemail (I have a "thing" about Voicemail, I can't call it, I just don't want...
- Okay, this is from Dr. Wayne Dyer, I took out one of his audio books from the library (nerd), and I, gasp, actually listened to it, and, holy crap, actually LEARNED some stuff! This is awesome: "When you change the way you look at things, the...
- I made it through a week at the beach with my party girls! And I'm still sober! I wrote more about it in my journal, you can read if you want, but it may be triggering, so I'm not posting here in the support group. I made it though, that's the...
- I woke up this morning and realized, I'M SOBER!!! I feel so good! Monday morning, and I am sober and I didn't do a bunch of stupid shit on the weekend, I didn't say stupid stuff, I didn't embarrass myself or my kids, I didn't pick ridiculous,...
- I have 4 months Recovery now, free of bulimia/binge/purge ED (and also alcoholism). I just want to report what 4 months feels like, for anyone who's just entering recovery, and feeling like, "holy crap, how can I DO this, I feel so fat, I'm so...
- I'm celebrating my Big One-One-Seven today! (117 days sobriety) I'm doing well with it, I've passed several big milestones, my first 100 days, first sober wedding, first sober "dinner party", first sober school function (sigh. yeah, even school...
- It's weird, I'm 103 days sober, I'm doing okay, but summer is coming on strong... vacationing and yardwork and fishing, we opened the pool yesterday... It's going well, I'm enjoying my yard, I'm enjoying the new outlook of sobriety, learning new...
- You have taken from me. You have taken from my family, my kids, my friends... You've held me back from being the whole, complete, caring, giving person I can be. You've made me focus only on myself, my physical self, my looks.. The rest of me was...
- Can a person have a decent Easter, without beer? Because that's how I've always celebrated the rebirth of our Lord and Savior, you know, with the Blessed Beer Sacrement... Well, I'm standing here reporting to you from Other Side Of Easter, and I...
- My daughter is unrecognizable anymore. She has withdrawn from... just life in general. She still goes to school and comes home, but she stays in her room alone, seething and hating her family FOR BREATHING. She hates me worst of all. She is losing...
- There is a freedom in finally getting this thing out in the open. I just feel so good for having gone to my family doctor yesterday, and telling him everything. It helps that he's a great listener, and that he responded in such a professional...
- My daughter is rubbing holes in her wrists. She's 17. I've known about it for over a year. She's also been dangling her little leopard-print ballet flats over the precipice of an eating disorderNOS. Experimenting. Hating her beautiful curves. I've...