Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I'm celebrating my Big One-One-Seven today! (117 days sobriety) I'm doing well with it, I've passed several big milestones, my first 100 days, first sober wedding, first sober "dinner party", first sober school function (sigh. yeah, even school functions, it was bad...). All these things are great, and summer's coming on, and vacations... I feel I have enough sobriety under my belt, and enough of these positive outcomes, triumphs, enough mornings where I wake up and my head is clear, and I realize why I feel so good...
But my dirty little secret, it's really a silly thing, but I want to just put it out there, expose it, in case I've lost perspective: This is it: I'm keeping something in my closet these days, and it's not a bottle of vodka. It's CANDY.
It sounds silly. But I've been behaving with the candy just like I used to with the booze. I must go back into my closet about 15 times a day, and stuff Skittles in my mouth, or two or three Starburst into my pocket, or Werthers, or Strawberry Malted Milk Balls. I get triggered, you know, if my family is over, or friends, or any stress at all.. I head right for my closet. Maybe closer to 10, 12 times a day. Which probably coincides with how often I was drinking before.
I don't think it's a coincidence, and I don't particularly think it's funny. I have food issues, as I am also in recovery for a 30 year eating disorder.
I've read up on alcoholics and sugar and special metabolic considerations. I've had extensive bloodwork done, and a 5 hour glucose test. Everything came back fine, I'm not hypoclycemic. Apparently then, this sugar thing is all in my head. And in my closet.
Anyone else doing this with the sugar? It's not just that, it's the secrecy and the behavior... Like I'm substituting one for another, like I NEED something to hide...
But my dirty little secret, it's really a silly thing, but I want to just put it out there, expose it, in case I've lost perspective: This is it: I'm keeping something in my closet these days, and it's not a bottle of vodka. It's CANDY.
It sounds silly. But I've been behaving with the candy just like I used to with the booze. I must go back into my closet about 15 times a day, and stuff Skittles in my mouth, or two or three Starburst into my pocket, or Werthers, or Strawberry Malted Milk Balls. I get triggered, you know, if my family is over, or friends, or any stress at all.. I head right for my closet. Maybe closer to 10, 12 times a day. Which probably coincides with how often I was drinking before.
I don't think it's a coincidence, and I don't particularly think it's funny. I have food issues, as I am also in recovery for a 30 year eating disorder.
I've read up on alcoholics and sugar and special metabolic considerations. I've had extensive bloodwork done, and a 5 hour glucose test. Everything came back fine, I'm not hypoclycemic. Apparently then, this sugar thing is all in my head. And in my closet.
Anyone else doing this with the sugar? It's not just that, it's the secrecy and the behavior... Like I'm substituting one for another, like I NEED something to hide...
I use to drink at the park, school events, family crap, ugh how unbelievable it all is to me know...and I use to think no one could tell, I mean sheez I had a mint!
Your body gets used to the sugars in alcohol and so you crave candy. You'll have to wean yourself off the skittles and stock up with grapes, apples, bananas, oranges...stuff with NATURAL sugars. That is what helped me. (She says, as she just finished a bowl of Apple Jacks...lol).
Hang in there and way to go on 117 days.
WOO HOO!!!