There is a freedom in finally getting this thing out in the open. I just feel so good for having gone to my family doctor yesterday, and telling him everything. It helps that he's a great listener, and that he responded in such a professional manner.

I've gone to doctors before, for other issues, but I've never told any of them the big, hairy, underlying issue. The bulimia. I've had doctors question me, I've had them say to me "There must be something else, that's making you this upset..." I've had them stare at my fingernails (a good doctor get a LOT from examining the fingernails).

I've had dentists who wonder aloud at why my teeth are so damaged... When I was younger, there were doctors who quietly asked my MOTHER, "Is there something else? Is there an eating disorder?"

But they've never asked me directly about bulimia. I would've lied anyways, so that doesn't matter.

I'm just saying, it was so good to tell a regular, medical doctor the truth. It was freeing and empowering, a positive step.

I'm wondering where my next step will take me...