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- I'm just feeling good, first day of Spring, taught my daughter to shave her legs this morning, grateful to be HERE, just fully here and present and able to document all this great stuff... Day 400 snuck up and passed me right by, without a peep!...
- I'm celebrating one year free of Bulimia, the chains, the behaviors, the terrible depression associated with... I am free! I don't really have time to reflect, I'm on the way to the airport, onaccounta I HAVE A LIFE NOW! I'm in Florida! How's that...
- Sometimes when I try to navigate around DS, my computer just about FREEZES loading a page, it can take 30 or 40 seconds to load, which is AGONY! It's not all the time, but maybe about 1/4 of the time, what is UP with that, is it the ADS? I'm...
- I'm celebrating today! I'm also shocked at how quickly it went by, once we got it rolling! I've been saving some little tiny fireworks things in my dresser drawer, I think tonight is a good night to let them go... Kaboom! Crackle crackle snap!...
- My Friend Request Page has been all jacked up for a couple weeks now, if you have put in a Friend Request to me, I am not ignoring, I am trying to respond, is very frustrating! Anyone know a way to circumvent this page? I tried going to the person's...
- (sorry, this is a little graphic, and probably belongs in my journal... but I just feel like sharing something tangible, measurable tonight)So many years of focus on the flatness of my stomach. My life revolved around it. Flatness. So many years of...
- Last night I had a bit of a.... well, I don't know what I'd call it. I was struggling. I had plans and a list a mile long at the beginning of the day... and then my sister and her kids stopped over.... and the usual mess ensued, and my plans came...
- Yesterday I had a pretty bad day as a substitute teacher... I corrected a kid for a behavior I mistook as anger, in fact, I think I told him "STOP THAT TWITCHING!"... only to find out later the kid has Tourettes.Fuuuuuuuuuuudge.... Not my finest...
- I've been calling myself "Big Mamma" this past year, I'm not sure why... Just in a joking manner, as in, it's the screenname of my Mii (avatar) on the Wii, or I refer to myself as Big Mamma to my kids, as in, "Don't you mess with Big Mamma!" I'm at...
- ...it's because the joy in my heart has bubbled up and percolated out through my toes, not because I'm sloshy/sloppy/needy/everyone LOOKATMEEEE LOOKATMEEEEE woohooooo stumble fall oh no oh noooo barf... This New Year's Eve at my mom's house party,...
- Husban n I used to work all day together on a project, drinking our way through, doing crappy sloppy work, occasionally getting into a stupid booze-fight, occasionally getting something done... and then cap the day off with Wings and Yings at our...
- and they ROARRRRRED their terrible roars!and they gnashed their TERRIBLE TEETH!and they ROOOOOOLLLED their terrible eyes!and showed their TERRIBLE CLAWSSSSAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!I'm paraphrasing... That's how I read it to my kids, and I always raise my...
- I told my mother yesterday, that I've been bulimic for 30 years. I can't imagine how hard it was on her. The first place she went was "Ohhhh... why didn't I see it? Why didn't I figure it out?" Which is why I put it off for so long, telling her......
- Holy shit was it hard to get out of my car and walk into that building! And then, to even find the meeting, they don't exactly put a SIGN on the door... I just sorta wandered downstairs, following the direction of the voices... sklunked into the...
- Talked to my counseler today. Family counselor. Just me, without the family, but I had no problem filling up the 50 minutes... I was lamenting to her that there is no support for ED's in our county, there is no group therapy, nothing... and she...