I gave Bulimia 30 years of my young life... but the past 6 months have been mine. MINE. 6 months of finding out just how much was being taken from me, all those years... My time, my resources, my peace of mind... I pushed everyone away, I hid, I had so much to hide, I couldn't afford to let anyone get too close... I want my friends and family now, I want them close to me, I don't want to push them away and hide things from them. I want time with them, and fun and laughs and memories. I have so much to reclaim! And friendships, I have friends now! Girl friends! I didn't have girlfriends before, I didn't know how to relate, how to listen, how to share... I have actual women in my life now, who want to spend time with me! I must be sending out a completely different vibe now, because what I receive back has changed so drastically. It just makes me want to see how far I can go with this thing, this LIFE... I hope and pray and wish this for you, anyone reading this, if you are struggling, I hope you catch yourself before you fall too hard into the lies and the skewed, diseased thinking. Bulimia will help you lose so much more than weight, it will help you lose your friends, your health, your incentive, your time, your drive, your spark, your uncontrollable laughter, your appreciation of sunsets, your joy, your yearning, your hope, your plan, your direction, your HAIR... I have all that back, every single bit of it, and I am holding on TIGHT, as if my life depended on it...
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