Ah one of them days..

Havent had a day like this in awhile...which would probably mean im healing which is good. Feeling choked up all day, feels like the slightest thing is gonna just set me off...ugh. You know i really think i need to change something...I just dont know how. During a seperation the lonliness, anger, sadness, depression is all bad enough...But to have to see your Ex wife and some random guy walking your dog at 1:30AM?...I just dont think i can stay here anymore. That cut so badly. I was standing outside my building having a smoke the other day..and my puppy and my Ex came out...and Odin just walked right on passed me..not even a sniff. Sigh. He's forgetting about me. I have a buddy who lives on her floor, apparently its a big party spot now.I just really do not understand, it's been like 4 months and im still like just...so confused about the whole thing.I do not talk to her much, but from what i see, and hear from people...she's not the person i once knew. And that makes me extremly sad.. It's a pretty bad feeling to lose someone, but to know you lost them forever...it's really hard to think about.