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- Ok so I did something not very nice or good.... I came clean and I feel awful.... I can't stop beating myself up over it! Well for a little bit I tried to tell myself it's fine.... I am an adult and this other person hurt me so let's say we are even...
- But I should probably frequent here more. I keep making a bigger mess of my life... Now it's not apparent on the surface because only my therapist knows but if/when it comes to light to more.. Like my family... it's going to/would be a huge mess....
- I've been on Lamictal 25 mg for a week now.... and I have been in pain... and now thinking about it it crept up on me after I started the Lamictal and it has gotten worse by the day. I didn't know what is was... until I realized oh the only that has...
- somewhere to get this out. I am a loser. I am a dysfunctional, stupid person. I think all I can do is annoy people... I'm just a bad person. I can't think straight. I can't punish myself enough for all the stupid crap I do. I can't do much of...
- I just checked out the last new episode... online... and.... in it Silver...Dixon's GF freaks out and they realize she's bipolar....I was fine watching it.. not thinking oh she's acting bipolar so when that came up... I don't know... it kinda set me...
- This is the first time in a while that I've had to make it through 2 weeks without my therapist... Usually I'm flipping out by now... and getting all upset and freaked because he's not getting back to me or can't get me an earlier appt or he is on...
- *warning: umm sex will be mentioned in here* lol When I was 15 I met my first boyfriend... we fooled around... and within a week of dating went all the way.... then I couldn't get enough.... this went on for almost 2 years..... every chance I got......
- or what ever it is called...I hate my med. Sometimes I feel they do nothing, sometimes I think they help a little... but most of it lies in me.. and changing my thoughts and behaviors... but that is always going to be a work in progress...If you...
- a severe mental illness?Just wondering. Thanks
- Tomorrow I see the psych so he can check in with me about my med...It makes me really tired and weird feeling like an hour or 2 after taking them...I take Trileptal twice a day.. 600 mg at night and 300 in the morning.. starting tomorrow I should be...
- to kick my therapist to the curb? to be kicked to the curb by my therapist??I see it coming... and it freaks me out... but WHY?! He has set me off majorly... umm 2 times in the last week. I've upped my meds and I'm starting to not get set off so...
- My therapist called me yesterday... not on my cell like he normally does... I told him that's the # to reach me at... I'm hardly ever home... HE KNOWS THIS. NEVER calls my house, ALWAYS my cell... said he had thought of some things since my appt...
- I just started this today...it says take 1 pill twice a day.. like one at bedtime one in the morning.. are the doses suppose to be a certain number of hours apart?? I don't sleep 12 hours at night.........so.... do I still take it when I get up or...
- all conflicted.. angry.. annoyed... scared... unhappy....and I don't even know why.I'm way too scared to start my med.... WAY TOO SCARED. Like it's not going to happen. I can't do it. I don't know what I should do. I want to feel better... I want to...
- Does anyone take tegretol? I'm suppose to start taking it... but after reading about it online (reputable sites of course), I'm scared!!! Only my family knows I'm going to be on meds... besides my doctors and therapist of course...I work full...