Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
all conflicted.. angry.. annoyed... scared... unhappy....and I don't even know why.
I'm way too scared to start my med.... WAY TOO SCARED. Like it's not going to happen. I can't do it. I don't know what I should do. I want to feel better... I want to be helped but I can't do meds! I'm too freaked out! I don't want to go back to the psych... but I know I should but he seems to only offer meds. Doesn't counsel... just... listens... and gives me some funky looks when I say off the wall stuff....
I can't see my therapist until Thursday.. and he will just tell me try the med... it's a choice... blah blah blah.. yeah that's right but it's not that easy! I can't make choices and stick to them... I let things derail me...
I have always gone with the flow.. never protested... part of me feels like rebelling...freaking out... being non compliant.. let's see people try to make me do anything. But I don't want to be held against my will. Don't want work to find out.
I got a crappy hair cut today. The girl totally f---ed up one side of my hair! what gives. Now I just want to pull it all out!
I look at my daughter and.. she's so adorable.. and smart and she makes me laugh.. but when I'm laughing my heart is breaking...and I want to cry. She's so beautiful and she's got me for a freaking mom.
All I can eat is sugar...I know it's bad but I can't stop... and it's affecting my health.... I've got a TMI alert.. yeast infection ( I think or bacterial) I keep feeding......It's horrible. Not going to the doctor to get violated that way... they always think it's all in my head..... but it's not... that's why things come back on my tests.....
I don't know I hold it together half the time! I work.. go to school.. and no one knows....
I want to hurt myself but I can't make myself do it... which is weird... I use to not be able to stop myself...
OH this just sucks.
I'm way too scared to start my med.... WAY TOO SCARED. Like it's not going to happen. I can't do it. I don't know what I should do. I want to feel better... I want to be helped but I can't do meds! I'm too freaked out! I don't want to go back to the psych... but I know I should but he seems to only offer meds. Doesn't counsel... just... listens... and gives me some funky looks when I say off the wall stuff....
I can't see my therapist until Thursday.. and he will just tell me try the med... it's a choice... blah blah blah.. yeah that's right but it's not that easy! I can't make choices and stick to them... I let things derail me...
I have always gone with the flow.. never protested... part of me feels like rebelling...freaking out... being non compliant.. let's see people try to make me do anything. But I don't want to be held against my will. Don't want work to find out.
I got a crappy hair cut today. The girl totally f---ed up one side of my hair! what gives. Now I just want to pull it all out!
I look at my daughter and.. she's so adorable.. and smart and she makes me laugh.. but when I'm laughing my heart is breaking...and I want to cry. She's so beautiful and she's got me for a freaking mom.
All I can eat is sugar...I know it's bad but I can't stop... and it's affecting my health.... I've got a TMI alert.. yeast infection ( I think or bacterial) I keep feeding......It's horrible. Not going to the doctor to get violated that way... they always think it's all in my head..... but it's not... that's why things come back on my tests.....
I don't know I hold it together half the time! I work.. go to school.. and no one knows....
I want to hurt myself but I can't make myself do it... which is weird... I use to not be able to stop myself...
OH this just sucks.
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
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