bunnieluver18
Status: Tip for life: NEVER move across the country and leave your life behind. You will regret it. I do.
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My battle to keep my current record without SI is the hardest I have ever been in. I have this need for control, peace, stability, and foster care does not lend to such needs. You want control?...
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Today I had court because I am in foster care. It was a review hearing. Court is always hard though. It is a constant reminder of the mother that, in my eyes, died. When I was little, she was there....
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So today has been a pretty cool day. I've just been chilling out, breathing, and enjoying my day with minimum SI urges. It's been pretty nice. I think I need to add a new goal though. I have a...
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When I was in the hospital after my last suicidal mess, I learned the power of tears. There is something freeing about allowing myself to just cry and let all of the pain and heartache out. So many...
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So I have gone 6 weeks without cutting. I feel pretty proud of myself, but i know that if I don't continue this patten, than I might die. i have been so close to death before, and it scares me....
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Hey,As you guys might have noticed, I haven't left for my long-awaited inpatient treatment for the anorexia. First it was the insurance company that was dragging their feet, and now, the center that...
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Hey guys!So I have decided that I really need inpatient treatment. My anorexia is only getting worse, and my doctors are getting really worried about my health. This is the second month in a row that...
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So here goes: My doctor's appointment was the worst experience of my life. No joke the doctor said, "Your weight is UNACCEPTABLE!" He then proceeded to call my counselor and they are talking about...
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I am so so sad. I feel like I am losing all of my friends. None of them get Ana (anorexia). It's like I have to chose Ana or my friends. I hung out with my friend Victoria yesterday, and it was like...
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New revelation: drinking low calorie gatorade is like the most amazing thing for weight loss ever. The sugar high keeps me going when I am fatigued and ready to pass out, and as a plus, I am kept...
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Hey,So this weight loss thing is a cinch! Like sure, I get hella hungry at about 3 o clock in the afternoon when I haven't eaten anything all day, but man, the weight is falling off of me like CRAZY!...
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Hey everyone!Summer is here, and with all of the clothes coming off for the nice weather, I am realizing how FAT I have allowed myself to become. So I'm gonna lose some weight. 95lbs is my goal....
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I sit here to write in my journal as my last resort to the inevitable of my cutting tonight. I don't want to cut. I really don't, but the pain inside of me is so strong. My heart aches over all that...
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I am alive. Still breathing. Gosh, life can be so hard sometimes. School started yesterday. I was feeling very confident when I signed up for my classes, and now that I have seen the syllabuses, I...
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I just found out that one of my professors, Dr. Les Bailey from last semester at SMU passed away from cancer complications on Christmas Eve, almost a week ago. I don't know what to feel. I am...
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