bunnieluver18
Status: Tip for life: NEVER move across the country and leave your life behind. You will regret it. I do.
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I've been doing really great! :)
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I am tired. Very very tired. I am tired of of urges, the nightmares, the disappointment, the pain, the anxiety, the fear, the sadness. It seems as if this will never go away. Here I am, on my 15th...
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So this post might be triggering to some. Please read only, AND I MEAN ONLY, if you are safe. Reading my dumb journal isn't worth you hurting yourself. I am seriously stressing lately. Where do I...
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Today I made a major breakthrough. I am almost proud of myself. Let me explain.... You might have heard of the enormous storm going through the southern half of the USA in the next couple of days....
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I sit here tonight.And as much as I try,As hard as I might,I can't seem to cry. I have every reason, To let the tears flow,But they just won't come. Held up inside,Holding on tight,Even though my...
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I struggle to know what to write. How am I? Numb, I guess. But not totally numb. I am numb only to the point that one feels drugged up on novacaine while getting a root canal. I still feel the...
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There are 24 hours in a day. Sixty minutes in an hour. Sixty seconds in a minute. 86,400 seconds in a day. Funny because it seems like there are a million chances in one 24 hour period to SI and ruin...
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Sitting in the hospital on Monday, I realized something for probably the millionth time. Cutting solves nothing. It doesn't help me communicate my pain to others. It doesn't help me heal. It doesn't...
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I finally called my Mammaw (maternal grandmother) today. I've noticed that I hesitate to call her when things are really hard (or when I end up getting stitches, etc.). I finally fessed up to being a...
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Probably just by reading the title "Nine stitches later..." it's pretty obvious how stupidity got the best of me. So much for my record of 10 1/2 weeks. Man... So it all started Sunday night. I got...
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I feel gray today. You know, like cloudy-ish. Which is ironic because it was sunny out today for the first time in forever here (Washington always has rain and clouds!!). I don't really get it. I...
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So I was taking my meds this morning, when I heard the TV in the other room say it was Tuesday Feb 10, 2009. I just about lost it there. I wanted to cry, scream, jump for joy, eat ice cream, and...
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I guess I am angry. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today and he asked me what was bothering me. I told him the rapid loss of my grandfather to Alzheimers was killing me. He just looked at...
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Orange. It is the color that best describes how I'm feeling. It's a mix of being in intense pain emotionally but trying hard to hang in there, pass time, make it through safely. It shows the...
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