bunnieluver18
Status: Tip for life: NEVER move across the country and leave your life behind. You will regret it. I do.
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I feel gray today. You know, like cloudy-ish. Which is ironic because it was sunny out today for the first time in forever here (Washington always has rain and clouds!!). I don't really get it. I...
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So I was taking my meds this morning, when I heard the TV in the other room say it was Tuesday Feb 10, 2009. I just about lost it there. I wanted to cry, scream, jump for joy, eat ice cream, and...
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I guess I am angry. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today and he asked me what was bothering me. I told him the rapid loss of my grandfather to Alzheimers was killing me. He just looked at...
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Orange. It is the color that best describes how I'm feeling. It's a mix of being in intense pain emotionally but trying hard to hang in there, pass time, make it through safely. It shows the...
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Man... Life is hard. I guess my day started off difficult, with a dream involving some of the sexual abuse from my past. It was really scary. I hate waking up in a cold sweat. I don't know how I am...
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Nine weeks!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!! D'you have any idea how long nine weeks is? Like a freaking long time. Yeah. I'm pretty cool. Yep. And my sister loves me. Pretty fancy huh? :) :) :)
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Tip for life... Don't pierce your sister's ear with a safety pin, especially if you and your sister are in foster care, as the government kind of freaks out about that kind of thing. lol. And yes, I...
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Ahhh... My stupid head is killing me. I forgot to take my Effexor yesterday and now I have a killer headache. Grrr! I can't wait until I get to the point when I don't need it anymore. It makes me...
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I have heard of people using a red marker to color on themselves where they wanted to SI, and before, I thought it was stupid. I questioned how it could possibly help. Well tonight I was at the end...
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My battle to keep my current record without SI is the hardest I have ever been in. I have this need for control, peace, stability, and foster care does not lend to such needs. You want control?...
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Today I had court because I am in foster care. It was a review hearing. Court is always hard though. It is a constant reminder of the mother that, in my eyes, died. When I was little, she was there....
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So today has been a pretty cool day. I've just been chilling out, breathing, and enjoying my day with minimum SI urges. It's been pretty nice. I think I need to add a new goal though. I have a...
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When I was in the hospital after my last suicidal mess, I learned the power of tears. There is something freeing about allowing myself to just cry and let all of the pain and heartache out. So many...
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So I have gone 6 weeks without cutting. I feel pretty proud of myself, but i know that if I don't continue this patten, than I might die. i have been so close to death before, and it scares me....
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