Janine78
Status: I'm scared I must admit! Shy! Suffered from social anxiety in the past which still leaves me struggling to make friends.
Mood:
Horrible
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It was the end of September 1995, I woke in the night with terrible stomach pains. My mum thought it was appendicitis & drove me to our A&E. After a long wait a doctor came to see me. After talking...
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I wish I was good enough. It seems everyone wants me to be something or someone other than who I am. I just disappoint people & let them down, most people leave. Even my own family don't want to know...
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I had a break through today. I've been shown how I am self destructive due to my feelings about myself and I push away people who are kind to me as I don't know how to take it or trust it, that I...
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Can't believe what I was told today!!Feeling very angry, like gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrLoosing half my hours at work because one of the 2 contracts is no longer being funded.3 contracts...
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I am aching with pain tonight, so lost and afraid ... 2 weeks till my hours at work are halved & I've no sign of a second job to make up the hole in my finances. Some people are telling me I should...
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Why am I such a bloody coward ... All I had to do was walk into the church I regularly attend and witness the Baptism of my friends child. Should be easy right!How come I've been shaking like a leaf,...
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My dearest DH talked yesterday about a plan to help us reconnect ... I agreed I think it will work. We've lost touch with why we wanted to be together, it's not a break thank goodness... We both see...
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I wish so much ...I wish my baby girl had never diedI wish my son was happyI wish we'd never had to live with autism and so many behavioural problemsI wish I'd never been rapedI wish I knew how to...
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I'm sorry, sorry to not be good enough. Sorry I let you down, sorry I didn't know what to do or how to be there. Just sorry for everything
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I thankfully don't feel quite so bad today ... Today my pain and thoughts seem manageable.My dearest DH gave me some advice which helped me to still my mind.I wish I could feel able to cope on my own...
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That evening when I was 15 was horrible, I got out of there as quickly as I could. I told no one. The next night everyone was hanging out by our old primary school, I mean everyone, yes including my...
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I feel so lost, nothing is going right. I'm scared, scared I am loosing so much, scared I can't hold on, scared no one can see, scared no one would notice.
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When I was 15 there was a night when I thought a group of us were meeting up at my friend's boyfriends house. He was an older boy, WC, he was 17. I'd known him awhile, I'd known my friend since...
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Can't switch my mind off today. Some overwhelming thoughts I recon if I shut & locked my bedroom door and slit my wrists or overdosed it would be days before anyone missed me enough to break in to my...
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Sometimes life gives you what you want ... Me, life lets me see it, touch it, smell it, love it, but never have it.
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