Bucket list of wishes

I wish so much ...

I wish my baby girl had never died
I wish my son was happy
I wish we'd never had to live with autism and so many behavioural problems
I wish I'd never been raped
I wish I knew how to function in this world
I wish my mum and I were close and able to support each other
I wish I'd grown up with my family around me
I wish I'd never been abused
I wish I was strong
I wish the people around me, the ones I love and want to be close to could see me
I wish my grandparents hadn't shunned and punished me so
I wish I'd never been bullied at school
I wish I had a health relationship with food
I wish I didn't feel like I do about myself
I wish I knew what makes me so unloveable
I wish I'd never been beaten or cheated on
I wish my boyfriend knew how much I do care and want to be there for him
I wish he knew just how much pain I am in and how scared I am cause I want to stop the pain
I wish I wasn't so scared of everything
I wish I knew what to do to fix things
I wish I belonged somewhere
I wish we were still close
I wish I wasn't alone
I wish I could live a day right now without hating myself
I wish, I wish, I wish