Break through

I had a break through today. I've been shown how I am self destructive due to my feelings about myself and I push away people who are kind to me as I don't know how to take it or trust it, that I look for excuses to allow myself to feel bad and justify my feelings and negative behaviours.

I need to find away to let go of my past, all the hurt, all the pain and except where I am now and whose in my life now.

My dearest DH and a friend of ours PC have helped me get to this & I am so grateful to them both.