Men part 2 - May be disturbing or triggering
When I was 15 there was a night when I thought a group of us were meeting up at my friend's boyfriends house. He was an older boy, WC, he was 17. I'd known him awhile, I'd known my friend since primary school.
I arrived at his house, entered ... His parents were not home, it was just me & him. I went up to his room, I thought nothing of this as I'd been up there many times with my friend and WC before now. He offered me a drink, I said yes.
He went down stairs & came back with a bottle of Whitelightening cider ... I thought nothing of this, it's sad to say my social circle had been drinking since we were 13 or 14. I still thought others were going to turn up so I had a few swigs straight from the bottle.
I quite quickly felt strange, rather lightheaded, dizzy almost, not quite in myself; but not an out of body experience. He asked me if I wanted to lay on the bed (I had been sat on the windowsill ... I did
Next I knew he was over me, his hand up my tshirt .... I tried to push him off, I'm sure I said no
He unfastened my jeans, I tried to clench my legs together... I'm sure I said no again.
He pressed his body down on mine, he felt so heavy, I still tried to keep my legs together. His hands were wiggling my jeans and knickers down inch by inch. I felt so weak, I did not have any strength, I tried to push him off me.
He managed to get my jeans and knickers off me, he also managed to get himself between my legs. My hands were mostly trying to push him off me. His were pressing my shoulders down onto the bed & at one point on my throat ... I'm sure I said no again.
I remember how much it hurt when he stuck it in me, he was not gentle, he was a brute. I turned and looked at the wall & tried to switch my mind off and not think about what was happening ... Another something stolen from me by a man.
I arrived at his house, entered ... His parents were not home, it was just me & him. I went up to his room, I thought nothing of this as I'd been up there many times with my friend and WC before now. He offered me a drink, I said yes.
He went down stairs & came back with a bottle of Whitelightening cider ... I thought nothing of this, it's sad to say my social circle had been drinking since we were 13 or 14. I still thought others were going to turn up so I had a few swigs straight from the bottle.
I quite quickly felt strange, rather lightheaded, dizzy almost, not quite in myself; but not an out of body experience. He asked me if I wanted to lay on the bed (I had been sat on the windowsill ... I did
Next I knew he was over me, his hand up my tshirt .... I tried to push him off, I'm sure I said no
He unfastened my jeans, I tried to clench my legs together... I'm sure I said no again.
He pressed his body down on mine, he felt so heavy, I still tried to keep my legs together. His hands were wiggling my jeans and knickers down inch by inch. I felt so weak, I did not have any strength, I tried to push him off me.
He managed to get my jeans and knickers off me, he also managed to get himself between my legs. My hands were mostly trying to push him off me. His were pressing my shoulders down onto the bed & at one point on my throat ... I'm sure I said no again.
I remember how much it hurt when he stuck it in me, he was not gentle, he was a brute. I turned and looked at the wall & tried to switch my mind off and not think about what was happening ... Another something stolen from me by a man.
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I am so conflicted with your story here. First I would say that he was not a man he was a less then a human being and should at the bare minimum be castrated so he dosent reproduce. Second I feel so sorry for you and what that scum did and took from you. I cant imagine your fear, and loathing for men now from that traumatic experience. I will tell you that not all men are like that and would never treat a woman that way. I am so sorry you have had to live with this. I am here if you need a friend!
He got my friend pregnant a year or two after this. They have a son, they are not together now as he was abusive to her in the end.
Despite everything I do still believe there are nice, kind people in this world who try to put others first and treat people respectfully. I just struggle to trust people & when I do I usually end up paying for it. Thank you for your kind offer of friendship.