janetlwyness

Well, things are looking up in a way. my stress levels have come down considerably. I have realised i am a creature of routine, and when the routine is disrupted all hell breaks loose. This has been...

I have lived through many awful things in life, from a young child sexual abuse and violence were the norm for me. For many years I thought it was normal to just live on when someone wronged me or my...

In the last couple of years I have done a lot of reflecting on things i have done to help out the community. These things made me feel as though I was accomplishing things that meant something not...

Watched a movie I probably shouldnt have at a time like this, but at the same time was a good time. Its called "A Girl Like Me" A documentary about a girl who attempt suicide and the story of what...

Well this week has been uneventful outside of my mind. I feel so tortured by my thoughts most of the time. I feel good one minute then broken the next. I am having repeated daydreams of...

Well here is another day where I am stressing and feeling anxious. I am struggling with weather or not I have done something wrong to deserve a cold shoulder. He said I will call you later...

I have no time to think most of the time, and when i do have some time i totally shut down. I am taking meds now and hopefully will see a difference. I have been fighting everyday to stay positive...

I am sitting here pondering what to do today. I went for a walk to timmies and grabbed a coffee and a cookie. Now i realize I have no life, no friends, no family, I am alone and i need to do...

I am suffering today with a huge headache. The doc increased my risperidone to see if it will knock my behind out at night. it gave me headaches for the first week i took it and now the headaches are...

Well my day started off not too bad, went for lunch with my son which was pleasant. Had an appointment to see my psychiatrist today so i headed that way after lunch. stressed because i was going to...

Today is not any better than any other day lately, i am overwhelmed and stressed the F out. My plate runeth over and is making a nasty mess at my feet. ugh. I feel so abandoned and alone, its dark...

Today was part of the beginning of whatever is going to happen next. Met with the mental health social worker...who i realize has a job to do, stressed me out even more than i already am. I have way...

As i read over my last entry I see something I said that is not necessarily true. I don't hate people, in fact it's the opposite. I truly a people person. I get along with everyone and I always...

Today is yet anther new day, not feeling better but feeling any worse. I have chosen to hide out for the the next bit to think and write my journal. Since I woke today I am thinking about personal...

So today is a new day as are all other days. I am here and breathing so this is a good thing, I am feeling lost and confused today. Still angry with myself and facing challenges i should have face...