Real life....Real Struggles
I have no time to think most of the time, and when i do have some time i totally shut down. I am taking meds now and hopefully will see a difference. I have been fighting everyday to stay positive and try to see the good in life. I was threatened with an eviction so I was struggling to deal with all the legalities and discovered they couldn't evict me, at least not yet. My Daughter has discovered she is havng a baby and her and her BF will be getting an apartment of their own, I have mixed feeling about it. I will miss having her home and having mom daughter movie nights, but at the same time her and my youngest son argue constantly so it will be less stress. I know the two of them will be fine.
My youngest son has been putting up with test after test at the children's hospital to find out why he keeps fainting. On top of that he has a tumor in his leg that he is super anxious to have removed so he can go back to his sports. He is a 15 year old football player, who has had his life turned upside down due to his medical stuff. I feel horrible for him and I try to be as supportive as I can. He is handling it all quite well. He is a strong kid.
I am looking into medical leave from work so I can deal with my sons as well as my own health. I was doing ok and went back to work and within a month it all started right back where i was when i took time off the first time. I see my doc next week and I am crossing my fingers she is going to be supportive of my choice.
I have been dealing with the smells more and more. I get the smell of fish in my nose that I cannot shake and sometimes its the smell of rotting flesh, this makes me feel feel sick to my stomach. I have been using sparays and essential oils as a distraction and they work most of the time.
I have been dating a fella now for a couple of months, it was going great for the first while but as I feel worse and worse the harder i struggle to not push him away. My mind starts to come up with all kinds of things to discourage me. Not sure how long this will all go on. if its like any other time, i will walk away....
My youngest son has been putting up with test after test at the children's hospital to find out why he keeps fainting. On top of that he has a tumor in his leg that he is super anxious to have removed so he can go back to his sports. He is a 15 year old football player, who has had his life turned upside down due to his medical stuff. I feel horrible for him and I try to be as supportive as I can. He is handling it all quite well. He is a strong kid.
I am looking into medical leave from work so I can deal with my sons as well as my own health. I was doing ok and went back to work and within a month it all started right back where i was when i took time off the first time. I see my doc next week and I am crossing my fingers she is going to be supportive of my choice.
I have been dealing with the smells more and more. I get the smell of fish in my nose that I cannot shake and sometimes its the smell of rotting flesh, this makes me feel feel sick to my stomach. I have been using sparays and essential oils as a distraction and they work most of the time.
I have been dating a fella now for a couple of months, it was going great for the first while but as I feel worse and worse the harder i struggle to not push him away. My mind starts to come up with all kinds of things to discourage me. Not sure how long this will all go on. if its like any other time, i will walk away....
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