Well this week has been uneventful outside of my mind. I feel so tortured by my thoughts most of the time. I feel good one minute then broken the next. I am having repeated daydreams of raging...Every one of them I am battered and cut up at the end. I am reaching for the positive thoughts and clinging to them for dear life to keep myself somewhat sane. I am isolating myself again, even from those living in my home. I try not to but I am just so dam lost most of the time. odd though is that i feel abandoned at the same time. Like a forgotten pet that nobody wants to play with anymore. Why, I am not sure but at the same time in some ways I can see it. Sigh....CHEERS to recovery