Pcon1979

Today started rough. Fridays are hard without Catie here. Friday was our date night and take out night. We would both look forward to spending time together and trying a new meal from someplace. We...

Its  Christmas eve and I am at work. Being a TV news photographer keeps me busy and everyday is different. Everyone is so happy and excited. I don't feel happy or excited. I just want today and...

I need to vent.  I am very to close Catie's mom, sister, and her sister in law. I feel they understand the loss of her better than anyone. My folks on the other hand do not. They have been asking...

The final autopsy finally came back. After 56 long days of waiting. We learned that blood clot in her lung was the cause of death. It hurts that there was nothing that could be done and was it slowly...

Catie was the type to put things in the same spot every time. She would come home and her ring would go on top of the mircowave or in the bedroom on the dresser. In the days leading up to her passing...

The tears do not come as often as they did. The feeling of being beaten up has gone. The pain has not gone and I doubt it ever will. Now it just dull pain like a headache that never goes away. I know...

I used to really look forward to the end of the day. Catie and I would email through out the day. I work at a TV station as a photographer and she worked at hospital. On slow days we would send each...

It's been 30 days. 30 days of pain. 30 days without her. This time last month she was still here. This is our wedding week. Mr and Mrs Patrick and Catharine Conteh. I don't know how I can ever love...

I have been dealing with anger towards Catie ex husband. He showed up at the wake and it bothered me. Looking back I should not of let it upset me. What bothered me is all the things she told me...

This was going to be the week of our wedding. It has been 28 days since she went to heaven. The bridal shop was nice enough to give us her dress for the funeral. Nothing worst than seeing your bride...

I used to really look forward to the weekends. Our Friday night would begin with take out from one our favorite restaurants. After dinner we would have a fire. Saturday was for shopping. One of us...

I have found that mornings and nights are the toughest. We had such a routine every morning. I am a morning person so I would be up before her to shower. I would wake her up at 7:10 and make her some...

I love how we would start the day together..I loved to make your breakfast and your lunch.I love to put lotion on your back after your shower.I love to kiss and hug you before work.I love the silly...

Catie and I started dating in May of 2012. Our first date was to go and see the Hunger Games. I remember showing up a bit early because I was so nervous. When she walked in the door it was a like...