30 days

It's been 30 days. 30 days of pain. 30 days without her. This time last month she was still here. This is our wedding week. Mr and Mrs Patrick and Catharine Conteh. I don't know how I can ever love another like her. I don't want anyone but her. I think I will walk this world alone until I die and can be with my one true love. I don't want to lose anybody else. She is still my everything. No one will ever compare to her. I don't want anything from any woman. That part of me is pretty much dead. We had everything going for us. So many things and places. Maybe even a baby! I just feel everything I touch i destroy. Just can't make sense of this. Losing any body sucks but why my love? Why her? The best thing ever to happen to me? I finally found love and it's gone. I miss her so so much. I think back to her last day. It hurts to think that was her last day alive. I'm struggling without her. It's so hard without her. I just want to hear her voice. To hug and kiss her is all I want. I'm ranting because I need to get all these thoughts out of my head. This sucks and it's not fair. It's permanent and forever. Heart break is worst thing someone can go through.