Holidays

Its  Christmas eve and I am at work. Being a TV news photographer keeps me busy and everyday is different. Everyone is so happy and excited. I don't feel happy or excited. I just want today and tomorrow to be done and over with. I miss Catie so much right now. She loved the holidays and she made this time of year fun. Without her life just sucks. She made things fun and enjoyable. I have to wake up tomorrow and I will be alone. She wont be there to open any gifts.  We had a story today about two kids who have a Dad is a firefighter. They are making a big deal because he has to work and cant be with them on Christmas. Are you fucking kidding me? At least he gets to come home. Sorry that you cant open your gifts for hours. He will walk through the door at some point and everyone will be good. What about us who are waiting for someone who is never coming home. People think that have it so hard. Give me a break. I would glady trade places. Walk a day in my shoes and you will see that you have pretty damn good. I just really pissed off and hurting today.