Mamabear59

I can't take this much longer, she sits on her ass while the kids drive me nuts, my check is almost gone, and they come to me for sweet snacks, where am I suppose to get money from, my money tree out...

    The kids young and old are really getting on my last nerve tonight. It could be the effect of the meds making me supper ansty. Seemed to slow down a little with half a hyro-codone, this...

    Today is Rays B-Day, I sometimes really wonder where he is, is he ok, I think alot in this peanut shell room of mine. I made phone calls today to see if I could get a aide in to help me with...

He is the one anxious and putting a heck of a lot of monkies on my shoulder or trying to once again, the board hearing is in April he told me, the very end of April, results will be in May. I have no...

Boy I dispise waiting on phone calls when I have something to tell him that so very important and its already almost 9:30pm. I have been waiting patiently, but I know me, I'll snap cause I don't like...

I knew it would not last.  Its saterday morning 9:30 am the oldest needed a bath cause he is leaving for a few hours, turned my back for a split second the little one crawled into the tub, cloths...

What a very possitive day, "WOW", but they do not last with my daughter, it was to good to be true today. It has to be because of Good Friday. First it was the call from the attorney with good news,...

Sounds so darn quiet on here this evening, its like where is every one? Its 10:pm eastern time. had to go out and get the things that I needed for my hospital bed, didn't get to see Freddy, I'm kind...

Just can't sleep for some reason? Its 3:00am, the wind is howling, its a cold brisk wind, I can feel it, these windows are acient in this piece of shit apartment, and my computer is hooked up right...

I wish K-Mart was open late night, but their not, only Wall-Mart, I'm better off waiting till Sunday daylight any way. It was a toss up either see Freddy, or try to get out and buy me a clothing...

If it wasn't for Freddys call today, and you guys being so thoughtfull, it would have been terrible today. I know at times my daughter tries, but I still feel as if she takes advantage of me. What I...

Another year older, another year sader, another year closer to deaths door, going to be 101 tomorrow, LOL. But actually I'm never older then 21, don't I wish. Used to spend my B-Days with Freddy,...

Need to get it out, nothing ever changes, just underware, LOL, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and years! Ramble-venting, I wonder who really cares, who really listens, its like a losing battle out...

What are tears, oh yeh, those wet clear things that come out of ones eyes when hurt, sad, just can't take it any more being with out him, but then he says does crying help, come to think of it, yes,...

GRRRRRRRRRRRR! I HATE ATTORNEYS OR MOST OF THEM! Just when I thought I had a hurdled jumped, another sticken hurdle comes my way from the darn past, don't know which is worse? First I thought it was...