Im so depressed, tired of living on hells earth.

I can't take this much longer, she sits on her ass while the kids drive me nuts, my check is almost gone, and they come to me for sweet snacks, where am I suppose to get money from, my money tree out back? The shit is to live in housing is more exspencive, this is ridiculos, I worked for my money many long years only to get piss ass checks monthly. I can vent all I want to, it isn't going to change matters, only allows me to get my anger out a bit, I get so enraged that I am just a door mat baby sitter, or at least thats how I feel. I want peace in my life, just a little bit of peace, not happening. Grant it she worked a horrible shift but still I'm not healthy, thank goodness she only works like this for 5 days, she is the wicked witch of the east. God forgive me but I will never get along with her, I wish things would just change for the better if only a little, but thats another mirical in itself. How am I ever going to survieve financially? I have more to write, but I just don't feel like it, going to sleep, hard day on saterday she has to get up at 2:00am or 2:30, guess who is watching the kids, the live in nanny that pays for room and board.                                                                                                      Just Me!