Can\'t Sleep :(

Just can't sleep for some reason? Its 3:00am, the wind is howling, its a cold brisk wind, I can feel it, these windows are acient in this piece of shit apartment, and my computer is hooked up right next to the window in my peanut shell. Freddy called, kind of made me angry, this is not like him, he always wants to talk to one of the kids, Baby A is only 4, of cource he is still going to ask "WHY" questions. Its like what ever then Freddy. I have favortism towards my daughters boys, Freddy I really believe  has favortism over my step grandson Cameron, its understandable, Cameron was allowed to see him, where my daughter will not allow her son go to see Freddy. Numereous reasons I guess, though I must admit prison really isn't for a child if they don't have to go, under certain circumstances I guess? To early or late to think this one out.Have to make calls today, but darn it I need to sleep a little, the baby will be up and I will be draging but. Want to see if the doctor ordered my hospital bed, should be interesting if I can ever lay down in a bed once again? I'm so used to sleeping in a up-right possition. Seems as if I have a lot on my mind, but kind of to tired to write it all. Got my self this picture, its kind of like a prayer, encouragement, "NOT TO QUIT" when things get rough......I want to get The Serinity Prayer, and Footprints.......Wow its cold in this joint, going to try to sleep. Bye for now journal.                                                                                                                                                                            Just Me!