Mamabear59

Need to get it out, nothing ever changes, just underware, LOL, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and years! Ramble-venting, I wonder who really cares, who really listens, its like a losing battle out...

What are tears, oh yeh, those wet clear things that come out of ones eyes when hurt, sad, just can't take it any more being with out him, but then he says does crying help, come to think of it, yes,...

GRRRRRRRRRRRR! I HATE ATTORNEYS OR MOST OF THEM! Just when I thought I had a hurdled jumped, another sticken hurdle comes my way from the darn past, don't know which is worse? First I thought it was...

I know, I'm "CRAZY", but I'm staying closed mouth, seems as if I'll get my own room after all, my kid got a 3 bedroom apartment, she is suppose to sign the lease today, God I hope this is for real,...

Sad tonight, Freddy just called, can't remember if I told him to or not tonight? I ask him "DID YOU FEEL ME"? His responce was well what do you think, whats worrying you???? "US", is worrying me, I...

Could it have been a sign I wonder? Its really weird that I tried to change my-My Space background, and when I hit save changes a part of my Valentines Day background I can't remove, but the weirdest...

This is so strange, Freddy only calls me once a week, I barely get any mail from him any more, yes, I got a Valentines Day Card. Before X-Mas there was this ministry sight, personally I don't/can't...

Morning Journal,   What ever may be good about it:Stuck between these 4 walls, hoping and wondering if I will not crumble and fall?Days are so darn long around here, always so tired, must stay...

I fired the dish washer yesterday, LOL, and boy oh boy did she have dishes today, she was a secretary yesterday and today/ baby sitter, diaper changer, phone call maker, answering phone calls being...

I'm so tired of being a prisoners wife, waiting and wonder if we are ever going to have a life.He is there, I am here, so far away in distance, but yet so close in heart, but still so far apart.So...

I'm a angel, LOL, with 2 horns at times, LOL, no, I don't have horns, but my best friend on the inside send me a beautiful Valentines Day Card, it was a Teddy Bear with 2 horns, I'm going to get him...

WHERE THE HECK IS EVERY BODY, WERE DID ALL THE OLD TIMERS GET TO? I ONLY KNOW ONLY ABOUT A HANDFUL ON HERE NOW. WOW I COME IN AND OUT BUT THERE ARE NOT A LOT PEOPLE ON HERE THAT I KNOW ANY MORE. I...

HOW CAN SOME ONE WHO SAYS THEY ARE YOUR DAUGHTER BE SO SELFISH? HOW CAN SOME ONE WHO ONCE WAS A FRIEND GOSSIP BEHIND YOUR BACK? THINGS COME OUT IN THE END, WHAT COMES AROUND WILL GO AROUND IN THE...

HOW CAN ONE FORGIVE WHAT HAS BEEN DONE, SHE ADMITS TO THIS, SHE SAID SHE TOLD HER MAN, WELL I HOPE HE AN FORGIVE HER. I CAN'T FORGIVE FREDDY, I WON'T FORGIVE FREDDY EVERY ONE KNOWS UP HERE HOW HE HAS...

DOES IT EVER END ALL THE HURT AND PAIN THAT ONE FEELS INSIDE? TO LOVE OR NOT TO LOVE, I DON'T WANT TO LOVE THE MAN ON THE INSIDE LOOKING TO THE OUTSIDE, THERE IS NO ESCAPE, NO ESCAPE FROM LOVING HIM,...