26-11-17

Me again, surprise surprise.

Am I ok? I literally have no idea at all. I've messaged all the people I can for help but it's like nearly 5am so of couse I'm not gonna get a fucking answer.

Dan is in bed. Of course. I mean, like, he has work and stuff at 3PM, but also...

Ugh, I don't even know. We had a fight because I said that, personally, I thought his mum was being a bit maipulative (which I stand  by) and the conversation just devolved and it eventually turned into Dan essentially blaming me for the fact that he became a KP because he was expecting me to have a year abroad. I mean, sure, I've had a bit to drink, but at least if you surely expect that at least, you don't ask someone to move in with you. Am I right, or just presumptuous? I honestly don't know.

I'm so done with uni and relationships and stuff. I need a break and I can't have one and the one I was gonna have has been fucked up by Dan and his passport but even then it's not a break because I have to make sure he's ok and happu and fed etc.

I'm gonna have to go on holiday alone again soon. Not for my birthday Disneyland trip (unless we have to cancel that) but if we do, I can go somewhere alone and just...I don't know... rediscover ME?

I don't know.