Jormungandr
Status: Feeling scared about the future, if not terrified.
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- I made some oatmeal cookies today. I can't remember that last time I made them. It could have been 6-10 years ago. I just didn't have the money, energy or time to make them. I used to make them a lot years ago and people liked them. They were one...
- A part of me wants to live in a perfect world. The only problem is a perfect world would only be so if I wasn't in it.
- Usually, I welcome the night. Everyone's asleep and I can be myself. if I choose to go somewhere late at night, such as the store or a restaurant, I'm usually one of the few, if not the only one, there. The service is better, yes I know they're...
- This week, aside from a small breakfast each morning, I haven't eaten much. I just haven't felt that hungry. Probably, the one thing keeping my energy up is my soda intake and the occasional small snack. My stomach is growling. My mood is dark,...
- While surfing the web, I notice that IHOP had a all you can eat pancake special. I called them and got an exact price for it. I managed to find enough change for it plus tip. After I place my order, a couple nearby received their order. The wife...
- So, several weeks ago, I decided to have another go and apply for several jobs. I'm finally got responses. "No position currently available......blah..blah. blah....Thank you for you interest." Every single one of them. It's been over 6 years, I'm...
- As with many things in my life, I ignore them until they go away. Currently, I have an abscess on my hip. It started this past weekend as a small bump, eventually reaching 4 inches lengthwise. Most people would have gone to the doctor or clinic....
- It's finally get cold here. I like how it feels and how the cold air fills my lungs. I find it extremely comforting. I can sleep through the day or night, whichever I choose. At night, I can finally make tea. I prefer this custom black tea blend...
- So, I have no job, no friends, no wife and no children. These are things most normal people have in their lives. Yet, I can barely deal with my life now. I wouldn't know how to even begin to deal with it if I had to worry about others or work...
- Last night was bad. I kept waking up last night, maybe in every 2 hours. When I was awake, I kept thinking how screwed up my life was in every aspect. Lack of job, money, friends, purpose, etc. Then, a wave of despair would hit me. I'd start...
- Don't know if this should be addressed to a moderator or someone else, but many of mine and other peoples' replies has shown up multiple times in threads. Just thought I should point that out.
- Last week was not a good one. I was hit by double depression. An especially bad episode happened when I was out driving. I was in the turn lane at a red light. Nothing bad had happened that day, just normal. At least what pass for normal for me. I'm...
- Even if this economy was booming, I'd still have a very difficult time getting a job. I have too much education, few job skills, few social connections (I don't apply for jobs that require references as I don't have anyone to put down....
- So, I went to the DMV today to re-do my vision test. I easily passed, but I could have passed with my old glasses and saved several hundred dollars. Why? Because when I previously took the test the eye chart used was about 12 ft away and 10 ft high....
- Well, this week I picked my second pair of new glasses. The optometrist decided to give me bifocals after the disaster of my first pair a few weeks ago. So far, they're working. I had bifocals a decade ago, but it will still take some getting used...