Jormungandr
Status: Feeling scared about the future, if not terrified.
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- Well, my birthday has come and gone. I haven't celebrated it in years. To me, it's just another day or a reminder to renew my driver's license. However, given my current situation, I just annoys me.I woke up, so obviously I didn't get my wish, and...
- I mentioned in a post that my birthday is this month. I have to say I'm terrified of it. When I was growing up, birthdays weren't celebrated. No partilcaurs reason for it, but it was just another day. Maybe I'd get a "Happy Birthday," but mostly...
- Earlier this week, my father talked to me about a cousin who recently purchased a new home (the word million dollar was said) and how he had a great job. When I saw this cousin the last time, he was working the assembly line at a salsa company. Not...
- Today, I was on my sister's computer as she wanted me to print out a recipe she saw in the newspaper online. SO, I looked it up in the browser history. When I did I saw that she had logged on to Classmates.com. Curious, I went to it and decide to...
- I fear the day for it means continued suffering.I fear the night for it confirms my failure.I fear opportunity for it is wasted on me. I fear failure for it confirms my uselessness.I fear success for I know it is not of my skill and will not...
- I'm just useless. I have a B.A and a teacher credential that aren't worth the paper on which they're printed. It's almost a decade since I received them, yet here I am going nowhere. I long ago stopped applying for teaching positions for two...
- OK, another day, another job discussion. During the conversation with my sister, the topic of health insurance came up. She thought I should get a job with a good health plan, to which I replied I wasn't looking for one. If I had a plan for...
- I'm still looking for a job. Recently, my sister told me of positions available at the bank such as tellers. I look at the sign for it and it was one of those fill out an application and possibly be interviewed immediately. I walked away. I already...
- Ok, so I'm sitting on the sofa watching Spanish TV with my parents. I don't know if you've seen Spanish TV lately, but it's not....Well, aside from the soap operas, called novelas, some of the "family" shows such as "Sabado Gigante" (Giant Sunday),...
- As I mentioned in my previous posts, I've been applying for job. I've been doing this for almost 2 years without any response. I guess I have too many gaps in my employment record, too much education and little experience, too few references. I'd...
- A few days ago, I wrote about my eating binge. Well, today it's the opposite. I have eating anything except a jello cup and some soda and water. I just don't feel hungry. I slept most of the day and played on PS2 on and off. Don't know fi I'll eat...
- Whenever I'm severely depress, I eat..a lot. Supposedly, people eat carbohydrates for the rush. I, on the other hand, just want plain food, be it hamburgers, eggs, potatoes, vegetables, etc. Considering I can drink a six pack of Pepsi and fall...
- I mention in another post that I'm supposedly very intelligent, but have little imagination. I can learn something, but have great difficulty in applying it outside of that area or have no idea in that area whatsoever. No imagination, no creativity....
- Recently, I applied for two jobs and haven't received any replies. I went out to cut the grass. As I did, I look at my old neighbor's house and remember the family that lived there when I was younger. The oldest son was my age and he and his life...
- Ok, I walk into a supermarket or other store wearing my usual outfit of a T-shirt, Dickies (I've been wearing them since the mid-80s), and Nikes. I look around and maybe a few minutes, if no one else is shopping, I get some help. When I go to pay, I...