krischaos
Status: my self esteem is up
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- i dont know what to do.... i cant stop cutting for more then a month or two at the most... and now i cant stop thinking about killing myself. im losing it...
- So I finally started going to gender therapy last week and I got an appointment today. My mom is finally coming around and being less of a meany head on the subject. She comes to therapy with me and it's helped with her mood for the last week. I...
- so i came out to my mom last month about me being trans. she basically straight up ignored me i mean yeah we talked about it but that was it we talked and she doesnt even acknowledge that i ever came out to her at all. she refuses to even try and...
- so my aunt was watching my poppop but she had to bring my cousin home so he could go to school tomorrow. she asked my grandma (not in any way related to my poppop) to watch him. so his alarm goes off and im sickish(feel sick so im not allowed around...
- so i have been being a lil wimp and i waited way past when i first decided to tell my mom to tell her. however we really haven't had a sit down talk we will with have one today or tomorrow. i really thought she was gonna react badly but she gave me...
- this sucks idk whats wrong with me my urges just wont stop. its like a constant thing now and its usually for no reason at all. i dont get it, im confused by myself. i mean at first i was doing okay i had my urges when i was depressed and i fought...
- so i am now in a relationship with a boy (against my will i might add {quite complicated}) i gotta find a way around it but i dont know how so because of the fact that im a boy(FTM{basically i was born a girl but identify as male}) and i am not gay...
- im stupid im hurting and i dont know what to do anymore. i wanna cut bad and even though i throughout my razors i know i can find something i mean i have a punching bag down stairs and there are shit loads of knifes in my house. I'm about to cry my...
- so i live around some of the most open minded people i know. i love my friends they all have my back and have no problem with me on the fact that im "gay". some of them know im trans/genderqueer but they dont really get it and i cant seem to explain...
- okay so i dont know whats wrong with me. my emotional levels are really shaky, my grades have dropped again, i dont care about anything again, and i always have urges for no reason. im in a bad mood i want to cut but i threw the last of the razors i...
- im really glad for the fact that i have some friends who if they dont understand they dont always jump to conclusions. a week ago my friend and i were having a conversation that basically ended up with me crying and being really hurt (it was my...
- so i came out to my gsa friends as genderqueer anyway all of them are okay (even though some of them are confused). my gay friend now calls me by male pronouns (he doesnt know gender neutral ones but thats fine with me) when we arent with people...
- well i wrote a letter for my mom but i dont know if i should just wait until im 18 to tell her that i am genderqueer and want to transition toward being more masculine. ahhh im only 16 and she just got use to the gay thing idk if i should tell her...
- ive gone six months without cutting and/or burning myself but i really need to get rid of my other SI problems that i have acquired now, i kinda got rid of my cutting/burning problem with smoking, biting and pushing pens across my skin to the point...
- I slowly decay Body and mind rotting in dismayThe infection slowly taking my lifeThis infection giving to me by my wifeThe signs of the beast fill meI try to fight as it slowly kills meAnd she smilesLaughing in my face, and she smilesI look into my...