krischaos

so hardest week of my life but i didnt cut at all so im happyish and even though im still in all my emotional turmoil my friends who know about me SI'ing are helping me out. learning to trust people...

i dont know for some reason i just cant go a month without cutting and that is really strange for me. i mean i usually didnt even cut that much i had the urges to do so but i could ignore them for...

yeah so i havent written anything in a while, im suprised i could even write this. anyway its read ---> then

this sucks whateva dont care kill me.... :( i totally fucked up my stomach to the extreme it hurts and is painful and i dont know what to do with myself.....

hurraysesies i made it six days without cutting or doing something else really stupid to myself. ive been keeping a written jornual and its kinda helping me not si, also i started playing my guitar...

hurray for me but yeah on a serious note i was triggered today and as you guys no or dont know i threw out my razors so yeah and i was gonna go look for something but then  i was persauded not to so...

lost 2.5 pounds cutting out some junk food (its hard to cut them all out i run on sugar lol i think id go into shock if i didnt get any candy or soda into me) and hitting the punching bag everyday...

yeah so i go walking/running around for like 2-3 hours a day i still eat the same lost like 1 pound and a half gonna start doing other stuff to

i have finally learned to trust somebody completely

i dont know why i get so emotional and weak sometimes. all of this moth i have been going through about fifty different mood swings and i dont know why that is happening to me. i was so fucking close...

She cry’s because she fell from the sky The lord betrayed her she doesn’t know why Attacked by the beasts of the worldBeing thrown, given a twirl Her wings ripped from her back When the dark...

I WANT TO BLEED. It sucks all I think about these days is bleeding I miss it. jwhjdfsagjkl I don't know if I will last longer or not.

Some of them think that i have stopped. Some of them know i relapsed from the last time i stopped... all the ones that know that i have cut are telling me to stop. I really can't though I tried and...

i dont even know if i have the strength to keep on going. im barely getting through days and pretending to be normal is starting to get to me alot...

i went through a rough patch and i stopped working out started gaining weight until i weighed about 160 i had gotten down to weighing 140 so i put on a lot of weight.i had a break down instead of...