krischaos

47 DAYS FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *DANCE* *DANCE*

fiur more days and my goal is complete XD i really didnt think i could last this long but i did and im happy. XD

*happy dance* yeah hurray im almost at my goal. 

im the guy who can be really emotional sometimes. im the teen who sometimes feels unloved and has to prove his worth to the world. im the boy who sometimes just wants to be a kid and acts that way....

its been 13 days without fucking up :D im soo fucking happy right now

havent been weighing myself in a while but got on the scale today and was in the 140s i was like :o cause well i havent really been exercising that much and i havent been doing much different than i...

so hardest week of my life but i didnt cut at all so im happyish and even though im still in all my emotional turmoil my friends who know about me SI'ing are helping me out. learning to trust people...

i dont know for some reason i just cant go a month without cutting and that is really strange for me. i mean i usually didnt even cut that much i had the urges to do so but i could ignore them for...

yeah so i havent written anything in a while, im suprised i could even write this. anyway its read ---> then

this sucks whateva dont care kill me.... :( i totally fucked up my stomach to the extreme it hurts and is painful and i dont know what to do with myself.....

hurraysesies i made it six days without cutting or doing something else really stupid to myself. ive been keeping a written jornual and its kinda helping me not si, also i started playing my guitar...

hurray for me but yeah on a serious note i was triggered today and as you guys no or dont know i threw out my razors so yeah and i was gonna go look for something but then  i was persauded not to so...

lost 2.5 pounds cutting out some junk food (its hard to cut them all out i run on sugar lol i think id go into shock if i didnt get any candy or soda into me) and hitting the punching bag everyday...

yeah so i go walking/running around for like 2-3 hours a day i still eat the same lost like 1 pound and a half gonna start doing other stuff to

i have finally learned to trust somebody completely