A week

so hardest week of my life but i didnt cut at all so im happyish and even though im still in all my emotional turmoil my friends who know about me SI'ing are helping me out. learning to trust people has been a big thing for me lately and im happy i learned how to even if it was trusting different people with different things and not letting any of umm have it comepletly but 2 people in my life. my friends are kinda keeping me here right now they are whats makeing me not wanna just go jump off some bridge and they are what i consider my truest family. even without the blood bond we are tight and have each others back. i cant want until i get back to a point where i am not self destructing as much as i have been. with my friends and my family i hope i can get to the point where i can handle myself without having to bug them at like 3 in the mourning cause im crying... i feel sorry that i put such a big burden on them but they all laugh and smile and tell me its alright and thats what you do for friends or family. im happy that i have true friends that love me unconditionally and want the old me back, im happy that i have people willing to help me fight my demon even though in the end i have to fight it alone i think ill be greatful for these dudes in the long run for helping me fight for giving me even a small reason to still stay here longer.