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Status: My emotions are so hard to keep just barely stable...
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01/16/13Separate -I am not with my body, not in this worldAnd I am afraidHow does one convince those within their bodies that I not exist?Not in their worldWhere does the will to exist reside...
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I am not take and I am not wantShun the light, sheild my eyes from the incessant barrage of all things bad that come into viewIt is so clear, is it not?Shut my eyes so that the darkness brings...
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Now the polar opposite of the 'freight train' now that I have dropped deeply, quickly into depression. Just existing is painful. I try to distract myself, walk, watch TV. But I am so easily...
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Well I stopped taking Xyprexa for sleep and stability due to the side effects. I take it intermittently with/without Prozac to get out of a funk; Xyprexa alone for ANY funk, Xyprexa AND Prozac...
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I did have some DS members accept my friends invite and it really made me good. I thank you dearly and hope we can share good vibes, or a ear for the down times. I was so up yesterday, had HUGE...
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Today there were threads about a CL and all, a leader, moderator, a horse built by a committee(ends up looking like a camel). I found that the stream of comments really made me feel like many...
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EVERTIME I just about feel I have some answers to my swings it fails me. I am at work and all I can do is fantasize about walking out. Where would I go, hum. Home is depressing. Trips are too...
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Somewhere along the way my life's intent turned insincere. My innocence gladly given away for a peek at the ‘other side’. My eyes now constantly squinted and darting around the room always...
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(funny to me at least, much more amusing, to me, than being depressed) I am on vacation. Hadn’t been in the room 10 minutes and, while unpacking, dropped my new 5oz. cologne bottle on...
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(Funny, to me anyway...)I am on a very nice vacation, yet, I miss my cats. I love dogs but I miss my cats. I had dogs when I was a kid, Smokey the German Shepard and Moose the Dachund(think...
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' -- choose font -- '...this crap is endless. will someone just pick something, pleeease.... fuck.... i realize now that so much of my life is in a sincere belief that mayberry RFD exists. that...
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Does anyone else have a problem with Sunday's? Not the blues. Actually I love Monday and going back to work as it generally keeps me busy. Sometimes Monday sucks as much, but not usually. I...
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It never ceases to amaze me how I am so out of tune with my feelings and then something makes me focus inward briefly and I think "Wow, I didn't realize..." So today seemed ok and then I realized I...
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I am back after a horrible spring and summer, the worst ever. It really snuck up on me. This is always a horrible time, as literature agrees for BPs, but I just broke down and did not even know...
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I am not take and I am not wantShun the light, sheild my eyes from the incessant barrage of all things bad that come into viewIt is so clear, is it not?Shut my eyes so that the darkness brings...
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