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Status: My emotions are so hard to keep just barely stable...
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Now the polar opposite of the 'freight train' now that I have dropped deeply, quickly into depression. Just existing is painful. I try to distract myself, walk, watch TV. But I am so easily...
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Well I stopped taking Xyprexa for sleep and stability due to the side effects. I take it intermittently with/without Prozac to get out of a funk; Xyprexa alone for ANY funk, Xyprexa AND Prozac...
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I did have some DS members accept my friends invite and it really made me good. I thank you dearly and hope we can share good vibes, or a ear for the down times. I was so up yesterday, had HUGE...
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Today there were threads about a CL and all, a leader, moderator, a horse built by a committee(ends up looking like a camel). I found that the stream of comments really made me feel like many...
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EVERTIME I just about feel I have some answers to my swings it fails me. I am at work and all I can do is fantasize about walking out. Where would I go, hum. Home is depressing. Trips are too...
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Somewhere along the way my life's intent turned insincere. My innocence gladly given away for a peek at the ‘other side’. My eyes now constantly squinted and darting around the room always...
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(funny to me at least, much more amusing, to me, than being depressed) I am on vacation. Hadn’t been in the room 10 minutes and, while unpacking, dropped my new 5oz. cologne bottle on...
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(Funny, to me anyway...)I am on a very nice vacation, yet, I miss my cats. I love dogs but I miss my cats. I had dogs when I was a kid, Smokey the German Shepard and Moose the Dachund(think...
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' -- choose font -- '...this crap is endless. will someone just pick something, pleeease.... fuck.... i realize now that so much of my life is in a sincere belief that mayberry RFD exists. that...
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Does anyone else have a problem with Sunday's? Not the blues. Actually I love Monday and going back to work as it generally keeps me busy. Sometimes Monday sucks as much, but not usually. I...
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It never ceases to amaze me how I am so out of tune with my feelings and then something makes me focus inward briefly and I think "Wow, I didn't realize..." So today seemed ok and then I realized I...
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I am back after a horrible spring and summer, the worst ever. It really snuck up on me. This is always a horrible time, as literature agrees for BPs, but I just broke down and did not even know...
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This vacation was all about doing nothing, on purpose. Hang by the pool, not think about restrospective, introspective...any 'spective' at all. I had some bad times, especially one day I cycled...
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I was at a really nice steakhouse with the family on vacation. Feeling good. Had been doing spa stuff and generally enjoying myself. Then at dinner, bam, I got hot. I starting getting hotter and...
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I didn't sleep but a couple hours last night, so be it. Power through the day with one LESS cup of coffee, last cup by 1PM. 1mg Klonipin 7pm. Bed by 8:30PM.....BOOOM. I wake up at 10:30 and...
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