From bad to worse on Sundays...So Odd

Does anyone else have a problem with Sunday's?  Not the blues. Actually I love Monday and going back to work as it generally keeps me busy.  Sometimes Monday sucks as much, but not usually.  I realized just 6 months ago that the reason I was working Sunday (I work on computer tech so I can be anywhere) is that I cannot stand how I feel Sunday.  So I work.  It is not an ego thing at all, just a distraction.   And ouright I will say, I love my job completely which makes me feel very, very lucky.  And it pays...I am so lucky.  So fortunate. I have been trying to reclaim my life by working less hours, was up to 12/day, and dedicate more time to my life like piano composing and gardening.  Part of that was realizing I had slipped into working Sunday, sometimes 7 days a week for a few months.  So I have started my new drug usage, heavier reliance to see if I can cope, or at least not work.  I just took my max xanex and xyprexa and soon I should sleep.  If not the xyprexa usually shuts the thinking down so I am a drone.  Good ?  Bad ?  I can only say sleep or being a drone is better than the HELL I suffer through for just some ungodly reason.   BP sucks...gee, has anyone ever said that before.  I started ok and then the mind-crap, critical thnking, physical pain just creeps in.  Finally I cannot stand the sound of anyone or anything.  I become to dysphoric and agitated.  Yet I am so awake and ancy.  My shrink calls it the curse of manic dysphoria which unfortunately is where my BP tends to take me.   Why, why today and now.  No big triggers or queues. No issues. No events.  Actually I really believe it is having FREE TIME.  Really !  But nothing is satiating at all.  And then it spirals downward into this horribleness.... F^&(^*&!!!!